o9 dec 2o1o.. Fri... 0028

now listening to one song.. 方大同 Wonderful Tonight MV..

the way he sing.. reali make mi feel so touch.. feel so in love rite now.. miz hubby so much... no matter how i dress.. no matter i put on make up or not.. hubby always say.. im ok wif anything.. =D

so hope the time faster pass.. so i can pei hubby so.. but the bad thing is.. i will worri & miz my son alot.. coz he wil b wif my aunt.. aunt gg to bring my baby out to play.. sun den wil b bk..

do u guys knw?? when is the most happiest moment? the happiest moment is both my baby & my hubby is wif mi... no worries.. feel so xinfu...



to hubby:

hubby ty for buying mi my fav camera.. finali got my own camera.. can snap whenever i like.. lolz.. i love u hubby~~~




to baby:

mummy will miz you.. plz dun anyhow run.. mummy will worri even thou i nv say out.. mummy love you alot even thou i scolded u so much & even hit u.. is bcoz i reali reali care for u too much... i love u baby~~~


99 everyone.. 99 baby.. 99 hubby... <3

28 n0v 2o1o.. sun.. 2104

now listening to songs.. alot of things cm to my mind... tis few days.. dun knw y.. mb due to not feeling well.. having real bad temper agn... abit abit oso cannot...

last nite.. kind of angry wif hubby.. is 'fishing' so interesting? when told him not to change anymore money.. nv listen... nvm.. last nite.. getting tired.. waiting for hubby to finish work.. he said he wanna fish... feeling like shit.. feeling damn sick.. sms-ed him.. told him im not playing anymore.. quarrel wif him...

we spend too much on many things.. we tok b4 to save up money.. we did! juz to open an account.. tats all... for so many months.. wat we have save?? juz the S$500.00.. nothing more..

mb he wil think.. im too reality.. am i?? i dun wanna bring all tis kind of problems out onli after we rom.. marriage life.. is not juz as easy as we tot of... esp cm to 'money'..

told him wil nid to postpone until we both knw how to handle our money.. if not.. how we gg to survive? i dun wan all the toking.. i wan all the action..

we r so close now.. yet so far.. not onli tis problems.. things gg so wrong now.. i nv say out.. doesnt mean theres no problems.. u can run away frm any problems.. ( tats wat most guys do).. we wil nv make it to tat day..

not threatening u.. or scaring u.. is juz the truth.. if for the cming yr.. we cant solve all the problems.. den we have to postpone our rom.. i dun wanna rush into marriage when the problems nv solve or stil there...

i dun wanna bring forward anything.. tok all b4 we deciding anything...



to hubby..

sorry hubby... <3

2nd n0v 2o1o... tues... 2335

while waiting for hubby to reach hm... decided to blog awhile...

yesterday... nv go help my mama... went to find hubby for breakfast!!! haha... so happi... <3 hubby... juz cant stop to look at my ring... keke... after breakfast went bk hubby de hs.. den rest awhile...

den we went to suntec.. to eat lurch.. our fav CURRY RICE!! muahaha... =.= fattening food lor... zzzzzz... i shouldn take at all... haha... after lurch.. went for a smoke.. den we go arcade to 'fish'.. we try the vision2 de fish machine... not bad... so cute wor...

after tat.. we toali forgotten our dinner.. we went straight to MS de K-BOX!!!! haha.. sing sing sing... finali can sing liao... SHIOK AR!!

after tat faster rush hm.. coz my baby cal le... when we reach hm.. den hubby remind mi.. we haven take our dinner wor.. so HUNGRY!! i cook porriage for hubby... but hubby not full.. so we ordered KFC!!! fattening FOOD AGN!! OMG...

so juz now... i do lots of sit-ups.. and others exercise.. to BURN all the fats!!! haha... den go bath.. den hubby cal le...

now reali tired lor... plus headache.. mb the weather is humid.. zzzzz... k la...

gg to rest.. nitez hubby <3 *muackz*... nitez baby <3 *hugs*.. nitez all <3 *flying kiss*..

1st n0v 2o1o... mon.... 0909

Yesterday... mi. hubby & baby went to PS.. had our dun knw is lurch or dinner at pasta MAMA.. den have a smoke... den we went to GoldHeart to see whether got ring to buy or not... actuali juz wanna browse ard.. not reali intend to buy anything... but at the end... hubby bought mi a.......... RING!!!!

so HAPPI!!!! hubby finali bought mi a proposal ring ( but haven get a real proposal.. im waiting~~~).. nvm the diamond small or big... got ring can liao.. anyway... NOT CHEAP OSO!! thx hubby for the ring.. i reali do love it alot.. now we will b looking for our wedding band... saw one pair at GoldHeart... but today we will go suntec de lee hwa see...

think not gg to help my mama le... wil go on straight to find hubby for breakfast... keke... so long nv have breakfast wif hubby liao lor... sobx sobx... so miz the time we have breakfast together lor...

JUZ CANT BEAR TO TOOK off the ring even im gg to bath.. but i stil have to... keke... kip looking at the ring... the happiness juz dun knw how to put into words...

yap.. u guys will wonder.. tis not my 1st time got my proposal ring wat.. u knw wat... the last time.. i N.E.V.E.R get any proposal ring b4.. plus tat time i went to chose the 2pid wedding band.. totali no feeling.. like tio force to gte marry de lor...

now the feeling is so diff... so much wanna b his woman in his life... so much wanna share my life wif him... so much wanna b wif him til hes old & til death do us apart.. yap.. is an old sentence.. but stil is useful sentence...

HUBBY!!! WAIT FOR MI!!! IM CMING TO FIND U SOON~~~~~ to have breakfast wif ya... <33333333

3o 0ct 2o1o... sat.. 2236

4D nv kana.... i nid money!!! =P

sooooooo theeeeeeee fuckinggggggggggg boreeeeeeee attttttttt hmmmmmmmmmmm... 2days.. stay hm... feeling damn sick lor.. knn... *angry* if not bcoz have to save money... no nid b so guai.. ok la... not veri guai oso la... shopping online... HAHA!!

hubby now at work... baby now watching tv ** hoping he wil slp soon wor... hmmmm.... juz now do sum exercise... den do egg face mask... den apply sum milk lotion... sibei ai mei sia... haha... hai hao la... juz scare OLD!!! =D

dun knw can do it ma lor... told myself tomolow onwards have to watch diet.. n i mean strictly diet!! lolz... *praying hard i can* haiz.. no confident sia... lolz...

wat should i do now le... nothing... =.= ok la... blog hao le.. dun knw wat to write oso... my mind now is BLANK! haha...

gd nitez guys!!! ENJOY YA NITE!! coz is SAT NITE~~~~!!!!

I'M BACK!!! ( 29 oct 2o1o, fri, 2154)

sumone said my blog is DEAD! hahahaha!

bo la... juz lazy to do anything... so bore at hm neh... lolz... now waiting for hubby to call wor... hes on his way to work.... now listen to songs... finding my 'memories' bk... so i can write sumthing...

hmmmm... dun knw y... izzit bcoz of gg to marry... make mi think of alot of things.. & feel so guilty abt it? lolz... n izzit bcoz of those guilty & feel bad... make mi more cherish of wat i have now? mb....

reali feel bad to those i have hurt them.. most of them r gd guys ( tat time ).. now... they bcm not so nice... lolz... reali hope they wil found their Miss Rite... tot of the past.. n look at hubby.. make mi more heart pain... i have been hurting him emotionally since we met... LOLz

my poor hubby.. reali dun knw how to control myself.. esp for every month de mood swing... even my son oso kana.. LOL... two poor baby... LOlz

hubby is working so hard now.. but im slacking like tai tai.. LOL.. TY HUBBY!!! <3

hmmm... m not long ago.. i found out one shocking news tat i nv expect... sumone check my email wif mi knwing it... OMG!!!?? knw wat is privacy??? GOSH! nvm... past past le... sad tat tat person did tat sia..

ok la... lazy to write le.. later if got mood den write agn... cya guys <3


HUBBY!!! LOVE YOU!!!!

o3 july 2o1o... sat... o124..

hubby juz got in cab.. on his way hm...

while waiting hubby to reach hm & cal mi.. decided to blog.. lolz..

afternoon time... bring my son to suntec... to play games.. den walk awhile.. smsed hubby.. told him will meet him at MS.. bring my son to eat ice-cream while waiting for hubby...

hubby reached at 8plus.. den we go for our 'dinner'.. but b4 dinner.. i told hubby... i saw my fav dress.. so he said go there look look... keke... den he ask mi to try on.. at 1st.. juz saw one long dress.. after i see see look look awhile.. i found another long dress.. so tried on both dresses... all veri nice!!! hubby said buy one 1st (coz he scared i wont always wear).. after i changed bk.. i told the sales gal i wan both!!!

den i told hubby.. i pay for one.. n he pay for another.. but hubby said NVM!! he wil buy mi both den... =P im like.. DAMN HAPPI!!! got another sales gal told mi.. can see im veri happi.. HAHA.. of coz la.. hubby willing to buy for mi two lor..

one is S$39.90... mb for sum ppl think is not x.. but for us.. IS VERI X.. esp for mi.. the total S$79.80.. i can buy frm other shop 4-5 dresses lor... heartpain.. BUT HAPPI!!!




hubby:


sori to let u spend so much agn... haiz.. mi reali have veri bad habbit.. always spend so much.. sori!! T_T THX ALOt HUBBY!!! i reali love the two dresses alot... i wil wear it often.. bcoz is u buy for mi de.. keke... U R THE BEST HUBBY!!!

I LOVE U!!! MUACKZ!!


baby~~~

26 june 2o1o.. sat.. o1o3

juz watch one part of a drama..

when the guy saw the woman cried.. the guy de heart feel pain.. it reminds mi.. whenever i cry.. hubby de eyes... shows worri & sadness.. suddenli... i feel so 幸福.. coz i knw hubby cares alot.. he cares bcoz he love mi... now feel so 幸福 til wanna cry le.. but is happi de cry.. not sad...

22months & 8days.. august gg to celebrate our 2yrs anniversary.. how i wish... my dreamz wil cm true rite now... i haven ask hubby sum questions... but wil b soon.. on august.. to confirm sumthings...



hubby

i love u!!!

baby

16 june 2o1o... wed.. 1023...

u knw wat??? 1023.. im stil at hm!!!!!! so scare of lighting.. dun dare to go out... keke....

好 想 老 公 喔！

gg to call him soon wor... he abit sick sick... *sobx* 希 望 老 公 快 点 好 起 来 。。。

hubby... muz tc ar... if reali sick.. 不 要 去 做 工。。。 好 吗？ 去 看 医 生。。。

i go work le wor... muack hubby!!!

13 june 2o1o... sun... 1528

today.. went to help my mama... when finish le.. gg to buy 4D.. I SAW A GHOST!! bo la.. jking.. i saw Mr Gary Tan wif a gal... LOLz.. is abit shock to see him ( think he too abit shock).. lolz...

b4 i see him... i doubt tat.. i reali no feeling for him le? after i saw him... hmmm.. i confirm tat... i already no feeling for him... LOLz... a veri big rock.. is off my shoulder.. WAHAHA... my hubby cant dun worri le... keke.. ^_^

den i tried sumthing.. i ask sum1 his number.. but... she told mi.. beta not.. coz.. scared he kb her... LOLz... think he reali scare i mess up his life??? or he reali hate mi??? or sumthing else??? LOlz.. beta not to knw... complicated life... not i wan anymore... i nv intend to wan his number... juz ask for fun... LOLz..

any of the reasons.. i oso dun wanna knw... coz.. im having a veri 幸福 de life le.. veri happi wif it..





to hubby:

hubby dun worri.. i reali juz ask for fun.. n i knw u trust mi.. bcoz of tis past.. let mi more 真惜 wat i have now.. n let mi 看开了 alot of things... sum ppl r not meant to b in my life... they r juz passer-by.. i love u.. i reali do.. bcoz i blive u r 真心的。。

我爱你 hubby!!




frm ur baby...

31 may 2o1o.. mon... 2342

now my mood is beta den tis afternoon.. afternoon mood is totali like shit!!! b4 meeting my lawyer.. i almost cry out in MRT... listening to songs... recalled alot of unhappi things...

when i meet my lawyer... we have a small chat... she said she can see frm my eyes tat... i have alot of sadness!!! haha... n she said alot of things to mi... which is true!!!! i kip my feeling for veri long long time... so... whenever i mention abt tat idiot.. i wil feel damn fucking sad... LOLz... im running away of my sadness for 6yrs!!!

no wonder ppl always asked mi tat.. y there is sadness in ur eyes.. i juz tel them i dun knw... LOL... dun knw all tis izzit affecting my memories?? not sure oso...

wil go see doc soon... we wil see how...



hubby now working wor.. miz hubby deep deep... muackz!!!!

23 may 2o1o.. sun... 2331

keke... juz now cook ( 1st - bacon wif scallop... 2nd - baked potato wif bacon, salad cream & cheese.. 3rd - fried prawns...) hope hubby like it!!.. keke..

1st time cooked the 1st 2 dishes... dun knw nice ma.. keke... everytime hear frm hubby tat.. his work place de food veri kns.. so.. sumtimes cook for him to bring to work when he work nite shift...

tats all i can do... n try not to stress him... den now.. i dun feel like eating even thou im so the hungry~~~ keke... dun knw y... mb too tired le ba... coz tis morning o5oo den slp.. finish MJ at 2plus like tat... den... cooked pasta for hubby.. n for my sis n her bf.. i eat abit onli.. too tired to eat... keke... den hubby went hm le... den i watch tv til o5oo den slp..

suppose to wake up at o8oo to go help my mummy.. think im too tired... cannot hear my alarm... den o93o wake up.. rush to help my mummy.. den 14ooplus reach hm... faster go bath.. den take a nap...

already 16oo plus wake up.. 17oo den cal hubby wake up... my dad bought my son out.. den i meet hubby at toa payoh.. we went to eat.. den go NTUC buy things... den 2oooplus reach hm to cook.. haven cook the last dish.. already 215o!!! omg... den rushing to cook the last dish... if not hubby wil b late le..

lucky hubby nv late for work... keke...

HUBBY!!! LOVE U SO MUCH!! muackzzzzzz hope u like the food...

21 may 2o1o... fri... 23o1...

juz put down fone wif hubby...

juz now im veri unless.. told myself tat... nv let hubby worri b4 he go work.. but juz now i did... i cant hold back my tears once he start asking mi wat happen.. when he saw im not alrite...

discuss wif my uncle abt the hs thing.. n told him wats the reason i dun wanna see tat idiot face... my heart feel sour... sour is so much worse den pain... hubby nv blame mi or nv question mi y am i stil crying over all tis things...




to my love hubby

thkx for being so understanding.. i knw no matter wat.. u always b there for mi... i juz dun wan u to worri so much abt mi b4 u go work... having u... reali make my life completed.. at least i knw now.. u r so caring... lets go thro together wif all the ups n downs... i dun wanna think if any bad things wil happen between us.. i juz knw tat.. if we reali in love.. no one wil stop us...

I LOVE U HUBBY...


frm ur baby...

21 may 2o1o... friday... ooo5..

listening to my fav song...

20 may 2o1o (thus) morning.. in cab.. omw to help my mum... listening to songs.. suddenli recalled alot of things... thinking of marry hubby suppose to b a veri happi thing.. but bcoz my hs wif tat idiot... haven settle...

so much things in my mind when thinking of settling the hs wif tat idiot... the memories hurt mi so much... i knw i dun have the courage to face tat idiot agn... i knw.. i knw is not my fault... facing him means i have to recalled the painful memories.. which i wish to bury for my whole life.. thinking tat i have to face him in court.. make mi feel so breathless...

at the moment... i juz wish to hide n cry... totali dun feel like helping my mum... but.. i hold on my tears... take a deep breathe... stil went to help my mum... i knw tat... if i went out alone.. i sure veri emo.. so to help my mum to kip my mind clear... abt reaching my mum place.. suddenli i feel so tired... my mind suddenli went blank...

after helping my mum.. i rush hm to bath.. den take a nap.. reali feel so tired...

i juz hate ppl stress mi.. above the things i mention.. already make mi feel so breathless.. yet.. stil add oil.. make mi juz wanna run out of my hs... n go my fav place to cool down...

sum ppl wanna knw y.. y few yrs liao.. i stil feel so pain.. i wil tel u guys now.. if we NV MARRIED N MAKE VOWS.. i wont b so painful... bcoz i did my best to b a gd wife (mb not enough)... yet... he gave mi all the shit... do i deserved all tis???

as i tot of all tis shit.. suddenli i feel so scare to marry AGN!!! =.=''''''

DAMN!!! feel like crying now...

EVE WAKE UP PLZ... B BRAVE!!! TAKE OUT ALL UR BLODDY COURAGE TO FACE TAT MF!!!! U ALREADY WENT THRO SO MUCH!!! JUZ ABIT MORE!!! JUZ JY JY JY !!!! ONLI U CAN HELP URSELF!! NO ONE CAN HELP U!!!!

*brking down in my heart* BUT CANNOT SHOW!!! FUCK LA... sum ppl painful can show... KNN.. im painful.. YET!!! I STIL HAVE TO HIDE MY BLOODY FEELING, PUT ON A HAPPI FACE.. N FACE EVERYONE!!! SHIOK LA!!! wat a waste im not an actress lor.. LOL... BO NG LA!!!

k la.. even i blog... stil no one wil knw the SUCKS FEELING LA... LOL.. i dun expect anyone knw.. ( if u knw how i feel.. den congrats... u r having the same problems as mi!! welcome to my FUCKING HEART PAIN WORLD!! ) lolz.. n the best part is.. even after i blog.. IM NOT FEELING ANY BETA!!!!

nitez everyone.. nitez baby... nitez hubby.. love u all <3

18 may 2o1o... tues.. ooo3...

today is 18 may 2o1o... which is our 21 month together!!! wahaha...

so happi.. but now bore at hm neh... dun knw y neh... watever he work nitez... mi feel so boring at hm... like no1 pei wo... sobx sobx...

but nvm... hubby... JY JY!!! work hard... play HARDER!!! keke...

love u hubby... muackz....

17 may 2o1o... mon... o924..

at hm now... gg to bath n gg to work soon liao wor... veri tired lor... keke.. so lazy go do to help my mama... haiz...

do my blog de skin.. do til i blur blur... when got time... wil search for nicer blog skin... veri fun neh... keke... dun knw how to do my own blog skin neh... mi reali is com. noobie... LOL..

hubby juz reach hm not long.. n is slp neh... hao xiang go pei hubby... but cannot.. sobx sobx.. dun disturb him beta... later at nite... he start work at 2ooo... means later have to wake him up latest at 18oo wor...

so happi when mi n hubby planning for our rom.. haha... so EXCITED!!!!!! keke...

k la... gg to bath n work le...

nitez hubby!!! :x

12 may 2o1o.. wed... 2319

sumone told mi.. seems like i love my hubby alot..

den i start to think... i think of tat topic agn... indeed i already fallen for my hubby so much.. tat i deny to myself... funny rite?? y i have to lie to myself tat i love my hubby alot... coz... im so scare...

yap.. i told my fren tat.. even im scare.. i stil nv give up looking for love... i stil blive theres sumone meant to b wif mi til i old n die...

i dun knw how wil we bcm another yr later.. but i reali hope tat.. my hubby wil b the last one..

now worri abt my baby le.. he already aslp.. but hes coughing le.. zzzz... wth

ok la.. have to tc of my baby le.. poor baby...


nitez hubby... nitez baby... nitez everyone....

12 may 2o1o.. tues... 0054

gg to slp lor... mizing hubby rite now... hubby later muz b veri tired le.. have to wake up at o43o.. hmmm... dun knw wat to write..

tis few weeks.. alot of ppl r sick.. including my family... my bf.. & mi... cough flu... haiz.. stil haven recover... lolz...

think gg to slp ba... nitez everyone...


nitez hubby.. muackzz... nitez baby... mummy *hugs*

3o.o4.2o1o.. fri.. 0020

fri le... yeah!! can pei hubby soon le!!! i should have tis feeling now... but wrong.. rite now... im feeling damn emo...

like sumthing not gd gg to happen soon... dun knw how to say... or mb bcoz hubby got a bad day.. i dun feel gd... the feeling is juz now rite now...

haiz.. dun bother le.. wats mine is mine.. wats not.. wat wil happen.. wil happen... beta dun b bother ba....

bought two things for hubby... hope he like it ba....

FEEL SO SHIT NOW!!!!

24 april 2o1o... fri... 2357

now my feeling is like... confuse!!!!

wtf had happen to mi?? my brain now is like... OMG... alot of things... dun knw wat i thinking oso...

LOLZ.. my heart can kip how many things?? lolz..

wahaha... crazy liao mi!!! LOL...

22 april 2o1o.. thus.. 231o

b4 gg to slp... decided to updated my blog...

today is wif my hubby de 20th month & 4days... LOLZ.. & we stil so loving... keke...

yesterday online watching the 'bai quan nu wang'.. the show quite nice.. is abt a woman (30plus) who is older den the young man (20plus) by 8yo... at the end they got together..

tis story reminds mi abt mi n my hubby.. im older den my hubby by 5yo.. i knw wat the woman worri abt... thinking~~~~ age is not a matter.. but thinking is... i oso worry abt tis.. like how she 1st met the man... is woman wanna get marry.. the man is not rdy.. bcoz he got nothing to give her... & cant promise her anything... but the man reali work hard for their future...

i knw hubby oso working hard now.. xinku ni le hubby.. but not onli our thinking im worri... the same old problems agn.. which is lies on mi.. 'trust'.. 'trust' is the words.. 'trust' sumone reali so hard?? haiz...

esp i heard his mum told mi he play til wee hr den slp... i did ask my hubby.. i got an explaination... BUT!!! i stil dun blive... LOLZ! so funny de mi... haha... am i a freak or wat... idk... if no 'trust'.. is reali hard to get together... mb i dun have much faith in myself??? mb~~~~

AM I CRAZY OT WAT???!!!! dun knw la.. juz cant b bother by my 'trust' or dun 'trust' anymore... kind of tired... LOLZ.... the higher my hubby climb.. the more i worri n happi at the same time... happi bcoz he earn alot.. worri is bcoz.. the richer he is... means he wil change...

let fate decide ba... reali tired to care abt tis kind of rubbish le... have den gd.. dun have den i wil go for plan B... live wifout man.. onli wif my son~~~ LOLZ

HUBBY!!! miz u lots lots!!!!

o ya.. juz nw went to watch KICK ASS... is quite nice.. lolz... funny... muz watch ar...

nitez everyone... nitez hubby!!!

1o april 2o1o... o148...sat

thu pei hubby the whole day... veri happi wor.. but hor.. sad veri sad... coz.. time pass damn fast lor... kns de... happi moments always pass so fast de lor... zzzz

thu ( o8 april 2o1o) morning went to find hubby.. den ard 9plus we went to queenway to have our mac breakfast... den we went to ikea buy hubby de things... den went temple pray... den went to ......... den went to watch 'Clash of the Titans'.. the ending reali damn lame.. the monster cm out onli.. DIED!!!??? it haven even reali start to attack lor.. **faintz** reali wtf lor.. but the middle part of the show not bad la... den went hm to bring my son go compass point to collect my com n had our dinner there... keke....

juz now check online.. places for ROM... the places tat we like.. is damn x lor... over our budget... so think have to find other places le.. no choice... the rings oso quite x neh... all $$$.. see liao oso headache... zzzzzz.....



hubby~~

til now.. whenever go dating wif u... i stil feel so excited wor... dun knw y... keke... gd thing gd thing... hope u too have the same feeling.... not juz onli mi.. & hubby.. we juz every month save the amount tat we can k... we muz oso eat ar... earn less.. save less.. earn more save more... no stress... i love u hubby.. miz u so much!!!!


baby~~~~

o6 april 2o1o.... o916...

weeee... all the fees paid liao... relax~~~~~ saving for next month school fee ya... slowli save...

cant wait for thus... thus faster faster cm cm.. can pei hubby whole day.. keke... now doing sum research for the BS (bridal shop)... got one in mind... stil searching for few more BS... so happi... but so scare things wil went wrong in the middle... haiz...

hope tat our heart reali together.. so we wil b able to overcome all the problems together... keke....

so tiring... everyday not enough slp.. body is getting tired as day pass... hope my body can tahan ar... have to eat alot of gain more energy... but hor... my stomach not feeling gd le... dun knw y... haiz... health not gd... & PIMPLES KIP CMING OUT!!!! omfg!!!


HUBBY!!! miz u so much!!!! muackzzzzzzz

26 march 2o1o... fri... 2323,,, confuse...

morning til afternoon... i hear alot of love songs... even i hear sad songs.. i oso feel touch... i wont feel sad... i tot of hubby.. alot alot of small small things he have done... so touching... have so mach things to tel him..

but whenever i saw him... i feel SHY!!! omfg.. wth happen to mi le?? 1st time in my life i actuali feel shy towards guy... not like mi lor...

anw.. today topic is im confuse... so confuse... in marriage thing.. not im not prepare to have a family.. juz tat... whenever we discuss abt our plan... im veri happi.. but when im alone... i feel so scare... so scare history wil repeat.. sumtimes so confuse til feel like crying... haiz...



to hubby

sori tat make u sad when u see tis blog... i reali dun knw wat to do...

26 march 2o1o.. fri... 0037..

1st-ly.. i wanna wish sumone.. HAPPI BIRTHDAY VEL!!!! may all ur dreamz cm true.. & hope ur 'xinfu' wil faster faster cm cm!! lolz

today morning after sending my son to school.. went to polyclinic to find hubby.. to take his blood test result.. result not veri gd.. muz see specialist.. so already make appointment...

after poly.. we went to tiong baruh.. ( dun knw how to spell).. to eat lurch... & we went to see rings~~~ wedding ring~~~ so happi lor.. keke.... veri x neh.. kns

den after tat.. pei hubby go see chinese doc.. he spin his hand.. lolz... so now his hand tio 'bao'... LOL.. den went to buy sumthing... den went to hubby hs to take a nap.. too tired after lurch.. keke.. we two reali zhu zhu lor.. kns..

16oo we wake up to do things.. but den we had a misunderstanding.. & i hurt hubby agn... sobx sobx... but now.. everything ok le..



to hubby

' sorri to make u sad sad agn... juz now im not angry... is sad.. juz tat i use anger to cover my sadness... muackzz.. sori hubby.. dun knw y i can link til dun knw where... keke.... i love u hubby!!!!'

frm ur baby

24 march 2o1o... o84o.. gd morning!!!

juz finish my stairs climbing & sit-ups... omg... so tired... already stop one month nv do le..

wah kao.. last nite i dreamz of sumthing... i dreamz tat I BCM VERI FAT AFTER I STOP EXERCISE FOR QUITE SUMTIMES!!!! hey hey... reali wtf... i dun wanna put on weight liao... tis morning im god damn tired... but bcoz of tis 2pid dreamz.. no matter how F**King tired i am... i muz do exercise... to kip fit...

im onli real fat when im pregnant tat time.. i dun allow myself to get fat when IM NOT PREGNANT!!!! cannot tahan... wanna wear nice nice dress oso cannot... juz bcoz of my big stomach... reali ~!@#$%^&*()... lolz..

k la.. im gg to bath liao.. muz go help my mama le... if not they wil busy til siao... coz got one shop selling abt the same food as us.. nv open..

weeeee.... tomolow can see hubby liao... wahaha... have to pei hubby go polyclinic to take result neh... muackz hubby...

23 march 2o1o... 2317...

today wake up damn early to help my mummy.. o63o!!! omg... actuali should wake up at o545 de.. cannot wake up... lolz... too tird i guess.. coz last nite tok wif hubby til tis morning o145 like tis den went to bed...

THX MEI!!! for helping mi to bring my son to school in the morning den have to bring my son to student care at afternoon.. wifout her help.. i dun think i can go help my mummy...

tis afternoon 14oo++ reach hm.. den at hm play wif baby awhile.. & slack awhile b4 bathing.. den 15oo go bath... after bathing.. i went to slp at ard 15oo++... wake up at 1730.. eat liao.. den go fetch my son.. went to playgroung awhile.. den went to central to bring my faical form.. but kns lor... i bought the wrong one... but nvm lor.. juz try to use agn... if reali not suit my face... den i muz stop using le.. sobx sobx...

my face la... kns de la.. tis few months got so many pimples.. even after i stop faical... izzit due to im not enough slp plus heaty? mb... my faical~~~ my eyes~~~ like panda la.. zzzzzz.... kind of depress abt my face la.. haiz...

tis evening... 18oo++... when my son is at playground.. i sat at one blk void deck.. a woman veri funny... she ask mi got cents ma... she said she wanna use public fone.. at 1st i tot she wanna change.. i told her i dun have enough cents.. den at the end.. she asking mi for cents.. in the way tat.. "xiao jie... do u have cents?? can give mi 2 10cents??" im like HUH???!!! den i juz gave her 10cent.. n u knw wat.. she ask for more.. i told her.. "sori no more" & she kip looking into my wallet.. so rude...

den when my son buying sweets... i saw her ask other ppl for cents oso.. but tis time.. she nv use fone wor.. she kip it.. so funny.. shes a normal person.. she can work n earn.. y begging for money.. not i dun wanna give her.. if she is ke lian type de.. i sure give la.. wahlao.. tis kind.. totali perfect woman.. BEGGING FOR MONEY... HELO!! REALI WTF LE....

now mi n hubby trying to save money for our future wor... keke... so happi & feel so xinfu whenever i tot of our planz...

mi die le.. put hope = die faster... scare scare.. but stil have to try... life is to gamble de.. is to see worth it or not... if not worth... den y gamble... lolz... if u ask mi... tis time worth to gamble... den have to see tis few yrs b4 he get promoted & we ROM... if we have our ways to get thro all the difficulties... i wil willing to gamble agn...



to hubby..

jyjy at work wor.. u have my full support.. i wil do watever i can... juz not to let u worri too much abt mi.. so u can concentrate at work... hope in future.. we stil wil tok like now.. almost everything we share... miz u hubby!!! MUACKZ!!!!

frm ur baby...

21 march 2010... 2205....

another 55mins.. hubby gg to cal mi le.. mean hes gg to finish work soon liao... wahaha...

today had a great afternoon... baby benson have his full month celebration.. see xinfu de cpl... mi & my hubby oso planning alot of things liao... last nitez hubby slp at my hs wor.. i knw my hs veri noise... he nv slp well.. tonite he muz slp early.. tomolow afternoon den go find him.. dun wanna wake him up so early..

we ask alot of the prices.. abt ROM day.. wedding... give bith to baby... baby full month celebration... tis & tat.. n u knw wat... IS REALI COZ A BOMB!!! reali omg... but mi & hubby... reali happi in planning all tis... coz.. we planning to marry once he promoted... wil take another 2yrs if he reali work hard plus got the luck...

i blive he wont let mi down de.. i knw tis wil stress him alot.. now he muz knw how to deal wif the stress & how to handle it well.. im glad tat even thou hubby is so much younger den mi.. but he reali veri understanding... not i wanna give him so much stress.. is juz tat everything needs $$$.. where got things tat r free?? lolz

19months into our rs... even reality is so cruel.. but we stil managed well in our rs... even im the one who is taking more.. but i try not to always throw my temper... but sumtimes reali cannot control le.. haiz.. wat a useless mi.. cant help hubby much... i stil add stress to him...

to hubby

"sori tat i cant help u much.. yet i stil add on ur stress.. mi reali useless.. haiz... 19months le... we stil so lovely... keke.. hope tis wil nv change... til we grow old & die.. okie? we shall work reali reali hard together... den we can have our dreamz cm true..."

i love u hubby...

19 march 2o1o.. 2335..

tired tired tired... keke...

miz my hubby alot neh... yesterday asked my aunt to help tc of my son...den stay at my hubby hs to slp... but slp til my body aching... place to small liao.. keke... waiting for hubby to earn more... so can change hs rm de thing.. den we wil have bigger place to slp liao...

den today... afternoon.. eat wif hubby.. den we nap awhile.. cant bear hubby go work.. but no choice... no work no money... think im oso gg to work soon?? mb.. or continue helping my mum? stil thinking...

tomolow nitez hubby cming my hs slp le.. i knw he wont get use.. but no choice ar.. i dun wan hubby to take cab cm my hs after work.. den take cab go hm.. den sun morning take cab cm find mi agn.. veri waste money... i ask my hubby go my parents rm to slp.. got air-con.. keke...

waiting for tomolow.. can pei hubby more le.. keke... den sun got function..

hubby o hubby... miz u deep deep le.. sobx sobx...

15 march 2o1o... 2329... lost memories is BK!!! lolz

juz read sumne blog.. theres a mv.. the song is.... dun knw the pinyin la.. lolz..

anyway... i repeated the songs few times.. suddenli theres one drop of tears.. wahaha.. mad hor mi... no choice le.. tat part of the memories actuali 'LOST' for yrs liao.. den suddenli it came bk..

the memories is the yr of 2003.. not bcoz of my x husband.. is sumthing to do wif a F**KING ASS who is a liar!!! lolz.. tat yr.. bcoz of the incident.. i eat work stand sit slp... oso wil cry like mad... y i tears?? of coz not bcoz of those jerk ass... is bcoz.. im thinking.. y those things muz happened on mi?? juz bcoz im dumb in rs?? lolz.. mi trying to b zhen xing.. yet.. at the end... i bcm dumb ass.. LOLZ..

heart so painful now.. tat y im the one who suffering all those things??? reali WTF lor...

but nvm.. whenever i feel so sad or painful.. once i heard hubby de voice.. i wil feel so much beta.. bcoz of hubby.. i reali feel the happiness rite now...

hubby~~~ reali thx for being there for mi whenever im sad.. even if u not wif mi... u always cal n check whether im alrite ma.. ur voice comfort mi... ur hug warms mi.. ur kiss melt my heart..

7 march 2o1o... 2349...

now hubby so sick sick.. if tomolow i go find him he stil veri sick.. im gg to bring him see doc agn...

nb.. the silver cross (holland) doc reali like shit.. he tot my hubby pretend sick.. mai give him mc.. tis not the 1st time.. last time at serangoon de silver cross oso like tis.. all they knw how to say is my hubby got throat infection.. check oso dun wanna check.. give my hubby a few medi.. reali ass..

today hubby went to see another doc.. oso like dun care like tat.. is abit beta den silver cross.. but no use le.. my hubby is veri weak now.. think hubby downstairs de doc is so much beta...

my poor hubby.. hubby de trainer oso knn la.. cb.. hubby de fren told their trainer hes sick.. their trainer tat my hubby they all r joking.. CB!! if anything happen to my hubby.. they sure wil b in the headline the next day.. i wan an ans frm them... esp my hubby de trainer...

hubby nvm.. u wil b ok de.. sorri i cant stay at ur side tc of u when u nid mi.. im so sorri.. have to tc of my son... u muz take gd care of urself whenever im not ard k.. dun let mi worri... I LOVE U!!!

3 march 2o1o... wed.. 23.36...

today dun knw y wor.. kind of emo.. haiz... how i wish hubby is wif mi today.. at afternoon when im omw go find hubby.. i cried in cab.. reali dun knw y lor.. haiz..

now is emo til tired.. juz wanna slp.. lolz..

1st mar 2o1o.. mon..2315

balala.. dun wanna listen any rubbish anymore.. my thing i oso cant handle liao.. hao xing mei hao bao.. wanna help ppl out of trouble.. yet give ppl say.. nb la.. if u wan ppl listen to u.. sure ppl wil give advice de lor.. if u dun wanna hear those words.. u dun wanna hear de.. DEN KIP IT URSELF..

ya la ya la.. in tis world.. onli u suffer la.. we all no problems de la.. onli u la.. happi bo??

END. (dun nid to say anymore)


back to my things..

today is a busy day wor.. tis morning after helping my mummy.. den go buy my thing.. den go help hubby buy his chips (dam x) lolz.. den rush to fetch my baobei to student care.. omg lor.. forget today is mon.. nid to bring cloths to student care.. zzz.. so have to rush hm to take.. den bring to student care.. den rush bk hm to bath.. den rush to find hubby for lurch.. den rush to find my fren chat.. den rush to fetch my son.. den rush to find MP.. den now... FINALI AT HM LIAO... wahaha...

haven bath.. muz wait til my son orh orh de can go bath.. he dun like to b alone... oso waiting for hubby to reach hm... tiring day lor.. later sure slp liao PIG.. keke..

HUBBY!!! MIZ U SO THE MUCH WOR!!!!

28 feb 2o1o... sun.....2149

tis week start my new job.. but i dun reali like.. so worked for 3days.. den quit liao.. so bore at office..

one main reason tat i quit.. is bcoz of my hubby..

his company ask him to work perm afternoon shift during his training.. means tis two month.. he wil have to work 15oo-23oo.. omg.. wat a shit timing.. so hard to meet him if i oso work outside.. even his off day i oso have to work.. sobx sobx.. den hai hubby have to cm find mi after his work.. it touchs mi n hurt mi at the same time.. touches mi is bcoz so late le.. he stil cm n find mi.. but hurts mi is bcoz so late liao.. i scare he tired wor.. but stil wil find a pt job soon after my sis recover.. sure every thus sat & sun.. i dun work.. wahaha.. thus is to pei hubby... sat n sun is for my son.. keke... reali miz hubby alot..

sumone sms mi sumthing tis morning.. dun wanna said who.. but i think she knw herself... i dun wanna waste my time.. let mi say one last time.. u love hear or not.. up to u...

'gal.. see.. i knw u dun like to hear tis kind of thing... but stil u have to face the truth.. if u dun help urself.. no one will..

is juz like.. there is a deep hole infront.. n u chose to fall inside.. when passer-by (ur frenz) throw a rope down n wanna pull u up.. u chose to let go the rope n let urself to fall deeper.. who to blame den?? choice is urs..

summore.. u r old enough to handle tis kind of rs.. dun blind urself.. FACE THE REALITY!!!! DUN DREAMING!!!!

in tis world.. not onli u r suffering.. u asked mi bk.. wat if my bf let go of mi.. how wil i feel?? now i tel u..

if is bcoz he dun love mi anymore.. den sorri.. i wont ask him bk..

if he is gg bk to his own country... i wil have a tok wif him.. if we find long distant rs is too miserable.. den we have to end it...

u think i nv go thro those stages tat i have to let go my loved ones?? i can tell u loudly!!! YES I DID B4.. n not onli once...

love not onli holding on.. got another kind of love.. cal letting go..'

tis is wat i have to say.. dun love to hear.. den SORRI.. NO ONE CAN HELP U!!!

so hungry.. HUBBY I MIZ U!!!!! <3>

(18 feb 2o1o.. thus)( bad day)

today happened sumthing tat make mi reali pissed off..n at nitez i lose 90bucks!!! =.=''''

y sum ppl juz wanna knw the truth?? even they knew it.. wat can they do?? either u accept or FUCK OFF???!!! is easy isn't it??

im sumone who dun reali nid to knw so many things.. everyone got their sercets.. y go drag?? after dragging.. will u reali feel happi?? u told mi.. u juz ask.. not drag.. FUCKING HELL.. DEN Y U KIP ASKING when u said u r not dragging..

i told u b4.. follow the wind.. dun against it.. b smart..

anyway u r too young.. cant blame u much.. but plz learn ur lesson.. dun always kip asking when u said u r not dragging!!! kip asking = dragging.. when u knw the truth.. i Sure leave u!!!

HUBBY!!! DUN FORCE MI!!! i told u liao.. if u r the type of guys who love to drag ppl sercets.. plz leave.. i dun nid u..

im might b perfect in sum ways.. but im not perfect in everything...

anyway.. happi 18months anniversary..

(14/2.. sun) HAPPI CNY & HAPPI VDAY

hohoho.. HAPPI CNY & VDAY EVERYONE!!! in tis new year.. may all the bad luck all go away.. all the gd luck cm cm.. HUAT AR!!! lolz..

tis yr cny falls on vday.. cant celebrate wif hubby vday... haiz.. sad.. nvm.. next sat (20/2).. we gg to celebrate our VDAY!!!! wahaha...

think 4 mi.. as long as we have our er ren shi jie means is our Vday le.. no choice wor.. our time is so limited.. sobx sobx.. but hor.. whenever we spend time er ren shi jie.. the time seems like pass veri fast lor.. kns..

hubby!! miz u lots lots.. muackz..

(6th feb.. sat) 0017

our love..

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/vday_love_story/306962/im_a_selfish_hottempered_and_flirty_single_mum.html

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/43326.html


now late late le.. wanna go slp... juz found out sumthing.. the kuku who said wanna interview mi wan.. is my x.. using new email.. new hp..

knew sumthing was wrong when tis kuku said he get my email frm fb.. n my bf oso go check is the company registered.. n is not.. lolz..

den i knw sumone trying to fool mi.. den told my bf.. mon not gg for interview.. not worth my time.. (actuali wanna go find out who the kuku is.. but partly oso lazy to find out) nothing big deal anyway..

HUBBY!! nitez nitez!!! muackz

(5th feb.. fri) 0913

agn juz finish my stairs climbing & sit-up... kind of tired.. lolz..

yesterday after helping my mum.. went out wif my hubby.. he bought his suit set at G2000.. at 1st we went to ION G2000.. OMG!!! the staff there IGNORE US!!!! how can like tis le... juz bcoz we nv wear nice nice izzit.. look like no money ar?? In the store onli have a few customers.. even my bf ask for help.. (one of the staff was standing stil.. n looking ard).. she pretend nv saw us n IGNORE US!!! ION le.. tot have gd service?? tis cal gd ar?? change all the staff la.. KNS...

veri angry lor.. den we go other outlet buy.. we went to wisma.. there beta abit.. but.. they staff like look down on us.. lolz.. my bf angry til.. he dun wanna buy agn frm G2000 anymore.. haha. no next time..

after buying his suit.. den we went bk ION eat n walk walk.. den we went far east to see my boots.. keke.. bought one.. nice one.. n cheap.. lolz.. offer ma.. keke.. so happi lor..

next week is my son n my hubby turn to buy their new cloths liao.. wahah..

Hubby!!! i miz u wor.. sobx sobx..

tomolow MJ!!!!!

(5th feb) dun treat mi like a fool

*treat mi like a fool.. i wil make u like a fool*

now is midnite liao.. wanna update my blog b4 i slp..

got a crap guy.. ask mi..

he: r u finding pt job?

mi: yes

he: pt admin.. frm 2-7pm.. ok?

mi: ok

he: im looking for attractive & sexy pt admin..

mi: .... im not sexy n not attractive..

he: nvm

tok abt admin awhile.. den he ask mi abt modelling... den after abt flirting.. i asked him where he got my email?? he said FB... fb?? omg.. how can he see my email frm fb?? =.= crap..

i told him im not interested in flirting.. den tok rubbish awhile.. i asked for his company website.. he said dun have.. he asked mi mon go interview.. i wanna see wat the F hes up to.. my hubby gg wif mi oso.. lolz.. 8.5/hr.. sounds not bad...

helo.. im not newbie.. n sumhow.. i knw alittle bit abt tat line.. treat mi like a fool.. i wil make u like a fool.. knn.. I DUN CARE WHO THE HELL R U!!! U MESS WIF THE WRONG WOMAN NOW..

if u r up to sumthing.. beta stop now.. if u r reali looking for pt admin.. the time n pay.. reali not bad for mi.. 2-7pm.. gd timing..

HUBBY!!! dun worri abt mi.. im not 1st time deal wif tis kind of ppl.. i have seen too many jerk!!! i knw how to deal wif them.. muackz.. dun worri.. juz trust mi.. i wil nv let u down..

*TRUST MI IF U REALI LOVE MI*

beta dun knw the truth

"Let ur life b interesting... Not Complicated"

to my dear fren.. (i dun wanna name..) i hope u knw who r u..

sumtimes is beta dun knw the truth.. like u said.. ppl hide frm u is bcoz they dun wanna hurt u or sumthings.. if is reali sumthing reali important.. i blive they wil try to tok to u.. juz relax urself.. juz dun kip guessing..

kip guessing for the unnecessary things.. wil onli make urself more miserable.. juz do the things u reali nid to do..

if u reali love tat person.. juz tell him.. staying or not.. is up to him.. juz fight for wat u can/wan..

remember tis.. " wats urs is urs.. wats not.. dun force"

"Some love is to let go.. not to hold on"

(4th feb.. wed) 0856

juz finish climbing stairs & sit-ups.. veri tired.. but feel fresh wor.. exercise reali re fresh mi everyday.. lolz.. esp swimming.. wahaha.. healthy le.. but im stil smoking.. so not much diff..

now rest awhile.. mb taking nap?? not sure.. see how ba.. lolz.. think i nid to drink lots of water.. lolz.. now everyday wil drink one glass of orange juice.. think i nid Vc veri badly.. if not.. easy to fall sick.. lolz..

later after helping my mum.. im gg to pei my hubby go buy his suit.. lolz.. bcoz of one 2pid lic pic.. nid to wear til smart smart.. wahlao.. juz a suit.. at least 200.. reali x lor.. zzz.. den if got time.. we gg to see his converse shoes.. CNY.. everything muz b new.. so wil have gd luck.. (true??).. lolz.. anyway.. gg to buy sooner or later..

Yeah Yeah.. later can pei hubby awhile lor.. but i have to try to go fetch my son on time.. haha.. hope can ba...

CNY cming lor.. u guys buy new cloths liao ma.. if haven.. faster go buy wor..

HUBBY!!! see u later!!! I MIZ U!!!!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

(3 feb 2o1o)

lolz.. looking at other ppl wedding pics.. so envy them.. deep in my heart.. yes.. i stil do wan a happi family.. but when?? when can i have it?? dun dare to think... hope to have a 2nd child.. when can i have?? or will i have?? if too old le.. dun dare to give birth 2nd one liao..

i dun dare to give my bf so much stress.. since he stil young.. juz gg to start his career.. i dun dare to ask anything frm him.. bcoz partly.. i dun dare to put so much hope.. im not scare to fall down agn.. is juz tat.. im LAZY to fall down den stand up agn bcoz of rs.. tats y.. dun put high hope.. wont fall so hard.. mb im reali kind of tired liao ba..

i juz realized tat.. i had put down my past.. n looking forward.. mb reali old liao.. n tired of holding on the past.. past got so much bad things happened.. now i dare to face those who last time hurt mi le.. of coz.. wat had happened.. wil remind as memories.. every now n den i recalled.. i feel nothing at all.. mb now too xin fu liao.. or mb should i say.. already so many things happened le.. feel numb??

for mi.. rs is always the last thing to think abt.. bcoz im so busy wif my own things.. esp my son..

there is one thing i wanna share.. b positive in life.. dun always so neg & emo.. life sure got lots of ups & down.. dun small small matter.. see til like super big matters.. if got problems.. solve it.. at there emo & being neg.. & drinking.. wont help to solve ur problems..

too emo or & neg.. wil let sum ppl sianz of u.. not they dun wanna listen to u.. but if same old problems for more den 6months.. & u kip saying the same things.. ppl hear liao oso wil sianz... dun say more den 6months la.. sum ppl hear more den a month oso sianz..

hubby~~ i dun knw how our future wil b.. if reali wanna b wif mi.. we reali muz work hard.. if one day u change ur heart.. PLZ TEL MI.. dun let mi catch u... lolz... ;P

hubby nitez nitez wor.. im gg to bed le..

*COUNT DOWN*~~~~~*17 m0re days*

(1st feb)

lolz.. last fri hubby morning cm find mi n pei mi go swim.. reali surprise to see him.. but im veir happi wor.. lolz..

mi more n more like swimming le.. let mi forget all my worries.. haha...

tat time we tio interview by razorTV.. now got another paper interview.. but i reject them due to sum reasons.. sad thing is tat cant share wif sg tat our love story.. but happi thing is tat.. they r interested in our story.. haha.. happi happi happi!!

now waiting for 20th feb.. hope nothing happen.. everything wil went smoothly.. lolz.. can pei hubby liao... wahaha..


HUBBY!!! i love u... nitey.. muackz

(24 jan 2010)

sat morning cant work up early to help my mum.. think my body reali too tired wif lots of exercises.. lolz...

den ard 1100.. do sum exercises at hm... den help my son to bath.. den i go bath oso.. 1230noon bring my son go tuition.. can see juz 2days class.. his english reading improve abit.. his tuition teacher reali a nice lady.. keke...

den tis morning.. i wake up damn late.. ard 1100plus den went down help my mum.. my mum face is reali BLACK!! wahaha.. anyway.. i dun care liao.. after CNY.. im gg to find job.. my son oso along wif mi.. den 1230noon like tat.. the food sold out le.. wahaha.. den do tis n tat.. ard 1500.. went bk hm to bath.. hubby waiting at my hs wor.. keke.. after tat we went to tampines giant for a walk.. bought sum food.. after tat we went for our dinner at serangoon garden..

OMG!! i eat alot lor.. reach hm liao oso eat n eat.. til 2100 den stop eating.. now hungry agn.. =.= think over exercises le.. body nid alot of food.. i think im not slimming down.. is toned up.. omg!!!! today nv exercises.. coz sun i wil let my body rest for a day.. scare my body cannot tahan ar...

nitez everyone.. miz hubby lots lots!! waiting for wed wor!!! so happi!!!

(22 jan 2010)

tis week reali a tired week for mi.. exercise n exercise.. lolz.. mon, wed and fri go swim.. tues & thus running.. lolz..

cannot swim or run too long.. no energy ya.. plus not enough slp.. body damn tired lor.. today nv go swim.. coz raining in the morning.. i onli swim in morning.. coz they said is beta to swim in the morning?? not sure.. i onli knw morning long run is gd for health.. lolz..

tis morning cant run or swim... due to the rain lor... kns.. after send my son to school.. went bk hm to slp.. lolz.. think body too tired.. slp til 1100 den go help my mum.. =.=

after helping my mum.. went bk hm to do sum exercise.. to train my lower body.. fat ar.. lolz..den after tat.. ard 1530.. went to fetch my son go tuition.. after tuition.. cannot tahan.. damn hungry.. my son wanna play see-saw (dun reali knw how to spell).. nearby got mac.. so went to buy mac eat.. lolz.. den sit at mac there do my things..

after den went bk.. changed liao.. den go running... actuali i lazy to run.. my son kip asking mi go running.. den no choice lor.. juz go.. oso gd la.. he push mi to run.. if not today im veri lazy to run & swim.. lolz..

tomolow wil do exercise at hm.. no nid go run or swim.. den sun is my rest day.. juz do sum sit-ups wil do.. lolz.. cannot stop.. no time le.. gg to CNY le.. muz mei mei ar.. keke...

gg to slp soon liao.. my body juz too tired.. my son slp liao.. haha..

k la.. nitez everyone.. ^_^ sweet dreamz..

NITEZ HUBBY!! i miz u lots lots

(21 jan 2010)

help!!! i wanna er ren shi jie wif my hubby agn!!! but when wor.. haiz..

today got gd news frm my hubby lor.. 22nd feb.. he gg to start his career job soon lor.. hmm.. feb wil b a busy month for mi.. gg to do my hair.. gg for facial.. tis n tat... Cny.. plus my sis gg to give birth soon liao wor.. so happi.. gg to b ah yi le mi.. keke..

my hubby so ke lian lor.. his pt job make him dun feel gd wor.. haiz.. heartpain wor..



hubby~~~ if reali dun feel gd.. dun go work le.. anyway ur job gg to start next month... so juz take a rest... den work hard for ur new job k... muackz... next time ni yang wo.. keke...

HUBBY!! I REALI MIZ U LOTS LOTS!!!

(18 Jan 2010) veri gd mood wor...

today i overslept!!! 0811 den wake up.. my son late for school lor... kns.. forget today he got school.. =.=

reach hm liao.. i faster go prepare for swimming.. (if i continue to slack awhile.. i sure go slp).. u can say mi out loud.. tat im lousy!! coz u knw wat.. i swim 2laps for 30mins!!!! imagine i swim half lap den rest for 5mins!!! omg.. last time dun knw how swim how many lap for 30mins lor.. haiz.. cannot ar.. muz continue swimming..

morning de sunlight veri stronger wor.. im sumone who is hard to get tan.. but now i tan abit abit le.. haha.. gd gd..

now eating my breakfast.. gg to help my mum soon.. after tat nid to go facial wor... den cm bk fetch my son.. keke...

o ya... yesterday so happi wor.. after help my mum.. den went out wif hubby wor.. hehe.. my son nv go wif us.. coz my cousin they all pei him play.. haha... n den how.. i eat my dinner alot lor.. til i stomach pain pain.. sobx... mb long long time nv eat til so full liao... so now eat too full.. dun feel well wor.. keke...

k la... tonite den continue write.. wahaha... have a nice day everyone!!!

(18 jan 2010)

lolz.. hubby today said he like the blog de pics wor.. keke.. juz wan hubby to knw tat.. whenever we r together.. wo heng zhen xi when we r together..

im veri happi wor.. my sis & my bro-in-law like him alot.. wahaha.. say reali hes a veri nice guy.. he accept tat

im a selfish woman.. veri jealous type of woman.. veri hot temper.. veri moody.. love to quarrel wif him.. always use veri bad de words scold him... veri reality.. love money lots lots... always no time for him... always hurt him...

yet.. for tis 17months.. he stil pamper mi like a princess.. n love mi like no one do... tis is the reason y i nv wanna flirt outside.. so dun ask mi y i stop flirting outside.. coz gd guy hard to find... lolz..

i love u hubby~~~!!!!! muackzz... u r the best!!!

sum memories of hubby&mi

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thx hubby.. always pamper mi so much.. sorri tat i always lose my temper.. always hurt u wif lots of words.. i nv mean it.. & u nv blame mi for anything.. even is my fault.. i always hurt u.. but u stil try ur best not to hurt mi.. whenever im not happi abt anything.. u will always try not to do it..

whenever we go eat.. u will help mi to peel the prawns for mi.. nv wanna let mi peel the prawns by myself..

for 17months.. u always pamper mi like a princess.. u love mi like no one do.. u always try to b there for mi whenever u can... but i nv..

i still remember.. sumtimes no matter how tired u r.. u stil cm n find mi..juz to pei wo..

I'm sori tat i cant give u my everything.. but i wil give u the best i can..

Even if one day we not together anymore.. i will always remember the way u love mi & care for mi..

juz wanna let u knw tat.. im reali glad to have u by my side.. all the small & big things u did for mi.. i reali feel touch even thou i nv said out..

THX FOR BEING A WONDERFUL BF

i love u hubby.. miz u lots lots

(16 jan 2010)

missing my hubby so much.. cannot slp lor.. wanna hug him slp so badly.. sobx sobx..

HUBBY~~!!! i knw u got see my blog de.. reali miz u veri badly wor.. haiz

cny & Vday cming le.. keke.. one of my fav day.. VDAY!!! but i think cant er ren shi jie wif hubby le.. haiz.. sad ar... now.. im trying to slim down ar.. i onli have 1month time wor.. hope can ar.. so can wear nice nice de dress wor..

reali feel like fly to my hubby now lor.. but cant.. miz hubby.. hubby now b piggy le.. slping nw.. keke.. see how meet hubby in dreamland ma.. omg.. im crazy.. keke..

17months lor.. stil love hubby so much wor.. keke..

(15 jan 2010)

so tired.. juz found sum love songs online.. n got tis song... i find it not bad wor.. song name is When U Kiss Mi by Shania Twain.. i love tis part of the song

'when u kiss mi.. i knw u miz mi.. when u wif mi.. the world goes away..'

tis is how i feel when im wif my hubby & my son.. theres nothing happier den have two of them at my side..

sum ppl wil think.. my hubby & mi haven marry.. y sound like im sure hes my forever.. haha.. i nv think hes mine forever.. ( at the moment i do hope hes mine.. wahaha) anyway.. dun think too much le mi.. wats mine is mine.. we stil have long long road to go.. nv knw wat wil happen next min.. so y bother so much.. as long as we r in love nw can le.. keke..

today after helping my mum.. mi n hubby went to er ren shi jie wor.. is juz 3hrs.. but im veri happi le.. mb our time together veri limited.. tats y we have to cherish the time when we have our er ren shi jie..

hope in future.. wil have more time to er ren shi jie wor.. keke..

k le.. late liao.. nitez everyone... nitez hubby & baby.. muackz.. love u two..

can nv go bk to the past (11 jan 2010)

YOU NI WO SHI XIN FU DE
(ni = my hubby & my son)

juz finish mj.. mi n hubby total won $10!! beta den lose lor.. keke.. last nite actualli wanna blog de.. but too tired le.. sum ppl remind mi of sumthing..

i reali hope to say is tat.. wat is past.. is past.. juz like feeling.. once gone is gone.. im a person who wont fall for the same person twice.. no matter last time i love/ like u so much.. now for mi.. i onli love my hubby.. all i can say is... cherish when u have it.. once is gone.. tats reali gone..

n for sum ppl... let mi say it once more.. i dun reali mind my hubby is younger den mi by 5yo.. so wat??!!! as long as we reali happi together.. y bother?? if we dun bother... y should u all?? so wat like u said.. u have tis n tat already.. but my hubby dun have.. remember tis.. hes so much younger den u.. how u knw in future he cant earn much?? u r not god.. u wil nv knw wat wil happen the next min..



hubby!! i miz u lots lots.. dun knw when den we can er ren shi jie agn wor.. haiz.. sobx sobx..

LOVE U ALL HUBBY & SON

b more low profile~~~

YOU NI WO SHI XIN FU DE
(ni = my hubby & my son)

juz tok to sumone.. tok half way.. suddenli offline.. LOLZ.. mb i told him sumthing he dun reali wanna listen?? or mb he juz tat busy...

1st.. dun compare my hubby wif u.. my hubby is 6yrs younger den u.. if he reali work hard.. he might able to earn more den u at ur tis age.. so dun compare.. onli make urself feel like sh*t..

2nd.. i nv look down on u.. n u ask mi.. do i think u r childish?? at ur age.. plus u r a man.. YES.. i do find u abit childish.. u told mi.. u already start ur career.. n is as stable as rock.. u said too bad my bf haven.. xcuse mi.. i think u juz start ur new job not long?? n now is as stable as rock?? think abt it.. frm the day i knw u.. u already change so much job..

is tis u call u can give mi a beta life?? i dun think so...

n at ur current salary.. u can give mi gd life?? wahaha.. think agn...

3rd... plz b more low profile.. dun juz earn tat abit more.. den so hao lian...

i told u b4.. i wanna man.. not a guy.. im waiting for my bf bcm a man.. i trust him.. he can de.. as for u.. PLZ... stop changing job.. all jobs sure got problems.. if u kip running away.. how u gg to earn big??

anyway think properly wat u reali wan ba.. ur age is gg up.. but ur mind is not.. dun use age tel mi tat u r old enough to think.. RUBBISH

LOVE U ALL HUBBY & SON

10 jan 2010 , 0037

9 jan morning.. due to sum reasons.. having bad mood, tired.. n headache... zzz..

afternoon after helping my mum.. bought my son to mac to study.. quarrel wif my bf.. (is my fault... having reali bad mood.. headache getting worse.. so abit abit oso cannot) at the same time teaching my son maths.. den ard 1530.. we take cab go hm.. reach hm.. den i take a nap...

7plus wake up.. my son went out wif my parents.. my sis n her husband.. i stay hm to wash my son de school uniform n my dresses..

9plus they all cm bk le.. my son coughing is getting worse.. so let him take sum medi.. i sae my daddy new hp le... keke.. planning my mumm bday oso buy one for her.. wil ask my relatives n family to share money buy.. wil buy same one my dad using.. but diff colour..

keke... thinking of getting my bf a Vday gift oso.. so everyday have to save abit.. by Vday can buy le... wahaha..

reali hope wil tio 4d or toto.. no nid to save like hell.. wahaha..

k la.. tats all for today.. nitez everyone