21 may 2o1o... friday... ooo5..

listening to my fav song...

20 may 2o1o (thus) morning.. in cab.. omw to help my mum... listening to songs.. suddenli recalled alot of things... thinking of marry hubby suppose to b a veri happi thing.. but bcoz my hs wif tat idiot... haven settle...

so much things in my mind when thinking of settling the hs wif tat idiot... the memories hurt mi so much... i knw i dun have the courage to face tat idiot agn... i knw.. i knw is not my fault... facing him means i have to recalled the painful memories.. which i wish to bury for my whole life.. thinking tat i have to face him in court.. make mi feel so breathless...

at the moment... i juz wish to hide n cry... totali dun feel like helping my mum... but.. i hold on my tears... take a deep breathe... stil went to help my mum... i knw tat... if i went out alone.. i sure veri emo.. so to help my mum to kip my mind clear... abt reaching my mum place.. suddenli i feel so tired... my mind suddenli went blank...

after helping my mum.. i rush hm to bath.. den take a nap.. reali feel so tired...

i juz hate ppl stress mi.. above the things i mention.. already make mi feel so breathless.. yet.. stil add oil.. make mi juz wanna run out of my hs... n go my fav place to cool down...

sum ppl wanna knw y.. y few yrs liao.. i stil feel so pain.. i wil tel u guys now.. if we NV MARRIED N MAKE VOWS.. i wont b so painful... bcoz i did my best to b a gd wife (mb not enough)... yet... he gave mi all the shit... do i deserved all tis???

as i tot of all tis shit.. suddenli i feel so scare to marry AGN!!! =.=''''''

DAMN!!! feel like crying now...

EVE WAKE UP PLZ... B BRAVE!!! TAKE OUT ALL UR BLODDY COURAGE TO FACE TAT MF!!!! U ALREADY WENT THRO SO MUCH!!! JUZ ABIT MORE!!! JUZ JY JY JY !!!! ONLI U CAN HELP URSELF!! NO ONE CAN HELP U!!!!

*brking down in my heart* BUT CANNOT SHOW!!! FUCK LA... sum ppl painful can show... KNN.. im painful.. YET!!! I STIL HAVE TO HIDE MY BLOODY FEELING, PUT ON A HAPPI FACE.. N FACE EVERYONE!!! SHIOK LA!!! wat a waste im not an actress lor.. LOL... BO NG LA!!!

k la.. even i blog... stil no one wil knw the SUCKS FEELING LA... LOL.. i dun expect anyone knw.. ( if u knw how i feel.. den congrats... u r having the same problems as mi!! welcome to my FUCKING HEART PAIN WORLD!! ) lolz.. n the best part is.. even after i blog.. IM NOT FEELING ANY BETA!!!!

nitez everyone.. nitez baby... nitez hubby.. love u all <3