31 may 2o1o.. mon... 2342

now my mood is beta den tis afternoon.. afternoon mood is totali like shit!!! b4 meeting my lawyer.. i almost cry out in MRT... listening to songs... recalled alot of unhappi things...

when i meet my lawyer... we have a small chat... she said she can see frm my eyes tat... i have alot of sadness!!! haha... n she said alot of things to mi... which is true!!!! i kip my feeling for veri long long time... so... whenever i mention abt tat idiot.. i wil feel damn fucking sad... LOLz... im running away of my sadness for 6yrs!!!

no wonder ppl always asked mi tat.. y there is sadness in ur eyes.. i juz tel them i dun knw... LOL... dun knw all tis izzit affecting my memories?? not sure oso...

wil go see doc soon... we wil see how...



hubby now working wor.. miz hubby deep deep... muackz!!!!

23 may 2o1o.. sun... 2331

keke... juz now cook ( 1st - bacon wif scallop... 2nd - baked potato wif bacon, salad cream & cheese.. 3rd - fried prawns...) hope hubby like it!!.. keke..

1st time cooked the 1st 2 dishes... dun knw nice ma.. keke... everytime hear frm hubby tat.. his work place de food veri kns.. so.. sumtimes cook for him to bring to work when he work nite shift...

tats all i can do... n try not to stress him... den now.. i dun feel like eating even thou im so the hungry~~~ keke... dun knw y... mb too tired le ba... coz tis morning o5oo den slp.. finish MJ at 2plus like tat... den... cooked pasta for hubby.. n for my sis n her bf.. i eat abit onli.. too tired to eat... keke... den hubby went hm le... den i watch tv til o5oo den slp..

suppose to wake up at o8oo to go help my mummy.. think im too tired... cannot hear my alarm... den o93o wake up.. rush to help my mummy.. den 14ooplus reach hm... faster go bath.. den take a nap...

already 16oo plus wake up.. 17oo den cal hubby wake up... my dad bought my son out.. den i meet hubby at toa payoh.. we went to eat.. den go NTUC buy things... den 2oooplus reach hm to cook.. haven cook the last dish.. already 215o!!! omg... den rushing to cook the last dish... if not hubby wil b late le..

lucky hubby nv late for work... keke...

HUBBY!!! LOVE U SO MUCH!! muackzzzzzz hope u like the food...

21 may 2o1o... fri... 23o1...

juz put down fone wif hubby...

juz now im veri unless.. told myself tat... nv let hubby worri b4 he go work.. but juz now i did... i cant hold back my tears once he start asking mi wat happen.. when he saw im not alrite...

discuss wif my uncle abt the hs thing.. n told him wats the reason i dun wanna see tat idiot face... my heart feel sour... sour is so much worse den pain... hubby nv blame mi or nv question mi y am i stil crying over all tis things...




to my love hubby

thkx for being so understanding.. i knw no matter wat.. u always b there for mi... i juz dun wan u to worri so much abt mi b4 u go work... having u... reali make my life completed.. at least i knw now.. u r so caring... lets go thro together wif all the ups n downs... i dun wanna think if any bad things wil happen between us.. i juz knw tat.. if we reali in love.. no one wil stop us...

I LOVE U HUBBY...


frm ur baby...

21 may 2o1o... friday... ooo5..

listening to my fav song...

20 may 2o1o (thus) morning.. in cab.. omw to help my mum... listening to songs.. suddenli recalled alot of things... thinking of marry hubby suppose to b a veri happi thing.. but bcoz my hs wif tat idiot... haven settle...

so much things in my mind when thinking of settling the hs wif tat idiot... the memories hurt mi so much... i knw i dun have the courage to face tat idiot agn... i knw.. i knw is not my fault... facing him means i have to recalled the painful memories.. which i wish to bury for my whole life.. thinking tat i have to face him in court.. make mi feel so breathless...

at the moment... i juz wish to hide n cry... totali dun feel like helping my mum... but.. i hold on my tears... take a deep breathe... stil went to help my mum... i knw tat... if i went out alone.. i sure veri emo.. so to help my mum to kip my mind clear... abt reaching my mum place.. suddenli i feel so tired... my mind suddenli went blank...

after helping my mum.. i rush hm to bath.. den take a nap.. reali feel so tired...

i juz hate ppl stress mi.. above the things i mention.. already make mi feel so breathless.. yet.. stil add oil.. make mi juz wanna run out of my hs... n go my fav place to cool down...

sum ppl wanna knw y.. y few yrs liao.. i stil feel so pain.. i wil tel u guys now.. if we NV MARRIED N MAKE VOWS.. i wont b so painful... bcoz i did my best to b a gd wife (mb not enough)... yet... he gave mi all the shit... do i deserved all tis???

as i tot of all tis shit.. suddenli i feel so scare to marry AGN!!! =.=''''''

DAMN!!! feel like crying now...

EVE WAKE UP PLZ... B BRAVE!!! TAKE OUT ALL UR BLODDY COURAGE TO FACE TAT MF!!!! U ALREADY WENT THRO SO MUCH!!! JUZ ABIT MORE!!! JUZ JY JY JY !!!! ONLI U CAN HELP URSELF!! NO ONE CAN HELP U!!!!

*brking down in my heart* BUT CANNOT SHOW!!! FUCK LA... sum ppl painful can show... KNN.. im painful.. YET!!! I STIL HAVE TO HIDE MY BLOODY FEELING, PUT ON A HAPPI FACE.. N FACE EVERYONE!!! SHIOK LA!!! wat a waste im not an actress lor.. LOL... BO NG LA!!!

k la.. even i blog... stil no one wil knw the SUCKS FEELING LA... LOL.. i dun expect anyone knw.. ( if u knw how i feel.. den congrats... u r having the same problems as mi!! welcome to my FUCKING HEART PAIN WORLD!! ) lolz.. n the best part is.. even after i blog.. IM NOT FEELING ANY BETA!!!!

nitez everyone.. nitez baby... nitez hubby.. love u all <3

18 may 2o1o... tues.. ooo3...

today is 18 may 2o1o... which is our 21 month together!!! wahaha...

so happi.. but now bore at hm neh... dun knw y neh... watever he work nitez... mi feel so boring at hm... like no1 pei wo... sobx sobx...

but nvm... hubby... JY JY!!! work hard... play HARDER!!! keke...

love u hubby... muackz....

17 may 2o1o... mon... o924..

at hm now... gg to bath n gg to work soon liao wor... veri tired lor... keke.. so lazy go do to help my mama... haiz...

do my blog de skin.. do til i blur blur... when got time... wil search for nicer blog skin... veri fun neh... keke... dun knw how to do my own blog skin neh... mi reali is com. noobie... LOL..

hubby juz reach hm not long.. n is slp neh... hao xiang go pei hubby... but cannot.. sobx sobx.. dun disturb him beta... later at nite... he start work at 2ooo... means later have to wake him up latest at 18oo wor...

so happi when mi n hubby planning for our rom.. haha... so EXCITED!!!!!! keke...

k la... gg to bath n work le...

nitez hubby!!! :x

12 may 2o1o.. wed... 2319

sumone told mi.. seems like i love my hubby alot..

den i start to think... i think of tat topic agn... indeed i already fallen for my hubby so much.. tat i deny to myself... funny rite?? y i have to lie to myself tat i love my hubby alot... coz... im so scare...

yap.. i told my fren tat.. even im scare.. i stil nv give up looking for love... i stil blive theres sumone meant to b wif mi til i old n die...

i dun knw how wil we bcm another yr later.. but i reali hope tat.. my hubby wil b the last one..

now worri abt my baby le.. he already aslp.. but hes coughing le.. zzzz... wth

ok la.. have to tc of my baby le.. poor baby...


nitez hubby... nitez baby... nitez everyone....

12 may 2o1o.. tues... 0054

gg to slp lor... mizing hubby rite now... hubby later muz b veri tired le.. have to wake up at o43o.. hmmm... dun knw wat to write..

tis few weeks.. alot of ppl r sick.. including my family... my bf.. & mi... cough flu... haiz.. stil haven recover... lolz...

think gg to slp ba... nitez everyone...


nitez hubby.. muackzz... nitez baby... mummy *hugs*