26 march 2o1o... fri... 2323,,, confuse...

morning til afternoon... i hear alot of love songs... even i hear sad songs.. i oso feel touch... i wont feel sad... i tot of hubby.. alot alot of small small things he have done... so touching... have so mach things to tel him..

but whenever i saw him... i feel SHY!!! omfg.. wth happen to mi le?? 1st time in my life i actuali feel shy towards guy... not like mi lor...

anw.. today topic is im confuse... so confuse... in marriage thing.. not im not prepare to have a family.. juz tat... whenever we discuss abt our plan... im veri happi.. but when im alone... i feel so scare... so scare history wil repeat.. sumtimes so confuse til feel like crying... haiz...



to hubby

sori tat make u sad when u see tis blog... i reali dun knw wat to do...

26 march 2o1o.. fri... 0037..

1st-ly.. i wanna wish sumone.. HAPPI BIRTHDAY VEL!!!! may all ur dreamz cm true.. & hope ur 'xinfu' wil faster faster cm cm!! lolz

today morning after sending my son to school.. went to polyclinic to find hubby.. to take his blood test result.. result not veri gd.. muz see specialist.. so already make appointment...

after poly.. we went to tiong baruh.. ( dun knw how to spell).. to eat lurch... & we went to see rings~~~ wedding ring~~~ so happi lor.. keke.... veri x neh.. kns

den after tat.. pei hubby go see chinese doc.. he spin his hand.. lolz... so now his hand tio 'bao'... LOL.. den went to buy sumthing... den went to hubby hs to take a nap.. too tired after lurch.. keke.. we two reali zhu zhu lor.. kns..

16oo we wake up to do things.. but den we had a misunderstanding.. & i hurt hubby agn... sobx sobx... but now.. everything ok le..



to hubby

' sorri to make u sad sad agn... juz now im not angry... is sad.. juz tat i use anger to cover my sadness... muackzz.. sori hubby.. dun knw y i can link til dun knw where... keke.... i love u hubby!!!!'

frm ur baby

24 march 2o1o... o84o.. gd morning!!!

juz finish my stairs climbing & sit-ups... omg... so tired... already stop one month nv do le..

wah kao.. last nite i dreamz of sumthing... i dreamz tat I BCM VERI FAT AFTER I STOP EXERCISE FOR QUITE SUMTIMES!!!! hey hey... reali wtf... i dun wanna put on weight liao... tis morning im god damn tired... but bcoz of tis 2pid dreamz.. no matter how F**King tired i am... i muz do exercise... to kip fit...

im onli real fat when im pregnant tat time.. i dun allow myself to get fat when IM NOT PREGNANT!!!! cannot tahan... wanna wear nice nice dress oso cannot... juz bcoz of my big stomach... reali ~!@#$%^&*()... lolz..

k la.. im gg to bath liao.. muz go help my mama le... if not they wil busy til siao... coz got one shop selling abt the same food as us.. nv open..

weeeee.... tomolow can see hubby liao... wahaha... have to pei hubby go polyclinic to take result neh... muackz hubby...

23 march 2o1o... 2317...

today wake up damn early to help my mummy.. o63o!!! omg... actuali should wake up at o545 de.. cannot wake up... lolz... too tird i guess.. coz last nite tok wif hubby til tis morning o145 like tis den went to bed...

THX MEI!!! for helping mi to bring my son to school in the morning den have to bring my son to student care at afternoon.. wifout her help.. i dun think i can go help my mummy...

tis afternoon 14oo++ reach hm.. den at hm play wif baby awhile.. & slack awhile b4 bathing.. den 15oo go bath... after bathing.. i went to slp at ard 15oo++... wake up at 1730.. eat liao.. den go fetch my son.. went to playgroung awhile.. den went to central to bring my faical form.. but kns lor... i bought the wrong one... but nvm lor.. juz try to use agn... if reali not suit my face... den i muz stop using le.. sobx sobx...

my face la... kns de la.. tis few months got so many pimples.. even after i stop faical... izzit due to im not enough slp plus heaty? mb... my faical~~~ my eyes~~~ like panda la.. zzzzzz.... kind of depress abt my face la.. haiz...

tis evening... 18oo++... when my son is at playground.. i sat at one blk void deck.. a woman veri funny... she ask mi got cents ma... she said she wanna use public fone.. at 1st i tot she wanna change.. i told her i dun have enough cents.. den at the end.. she asking mi for cents.. in the way tat.. "xiao jie... do u have cents?? can give mi 2 10cents??" im like HUH???!!! den i juz gave her 10cent.. n u knw wat.. she ask for more.. i told her.. "sori no more" & she kip looking into my wallet.. so rude...

den when my son buying sweets... i saw her ask other ppl for cents oso.. but tis time.. she nv use fone wor.. she kip it.. so funny.. shes a normal person.. she can work n earn.. y begging for money.. not i dun wanna give her.. if she is ke lian type de.. i sure give la.. wahlao.. tis kind.. totali perfect woman.. BEGGING FOR MONEY... HELO!! REALI WTF LE....

now mi n hubby trying to save money for our future wor... keke... so happi & feel so xinfu whenever i tot of our planz...

mi die le.. put hope = die faster... scare scare.. but stil have to try... life is to gamble de.. is to see worth it or not... if not worth... den y gamble... lolz... if u ask mi... tis time worth to gamble... den have to see tis few yrs b4 he get promoted & we ROM... if we have our ways to get thro all the difficulties... i wil willing to gamble agn...



to hubby..

jyjy at work wor.. u have my full support.. i wil do watever i can... juz not to let u worri too much abt mi.. so u can concentrate at work... hope in future.. we stil wil tok like now.. almost everything we share... miz u hubby!!! MUACKZ!!!!

frm ur baby...

21 march 2010... 2205....

another 55mins.. hubby gg to cal mi le.. mean hes gg to finish work soon liao... wahaha...

today had a great afternoon... baby benson have his full month celebration.. see xinfu de cpl... mi & my hubby oso planning alot of things liao... last nitez hubby slp at my hs wor.. i knw my hs veri noise... he nv slp well.. tonite he muz slp early.. tomolow afternoon den go find him.. dun wanna wake him up so early..

we ask alot of the prices.. abt ROM day.. wedding... give bith to baby... baby full month celebration... tis & tat.. n u knw wat... IS REALI COZ A BOMB!!! reali omg... but mi & hubby... reali happi in planning all tis... coz.. we planning to marry once he promoted... wil take another 2yrs if he reali work hard plus got the luck...

i blive he wont let mi down de.. i knw tis wil stress him alot.. now he muz knw how to deal wif the stress & how to handle it well.. im glad tat even thou hubby is so much younger den mi.. but he reali veri understanding... not i wanna give him so much stress.. is juz tat everything needs $$$.. where got things tat r free?? lolz

19months into our rs... even reality is so cruel.. but we stil managed well in our rs... even im the one who is taking more.. but i try not to always throw my temper... but sumtimes reali cannot control le.. haiz.. wat a useless mi.. cant help hubby much... i stil add stress to him...

to hubby

"sori tat i cant help u much.. yet i stil add on ur stress.. mi reali useless.. haiz... 19months le... we stil so lovely... keke.. hope tis wil nv change... til we grow old & die.. okie? we shall work reali reali hard together... den we can have our dreamz cm true..."

i love u hubby...

19 march 2o1o.. 2335..

tired tired tired... keke...

miz my hubby alot neh... yesterday asked my aunt to help tc of my son...den stay at my hubby hs to slp... but slp til my body aching... place to small liao.. keke... waiting for hubby to earn more... so can change hs rm de thing.. den we wil have bigger place to slp liao...

den today... afternoon.. eat wif hubby.. den we nap awhile.. cant bear hubby go work.. but no choice... no work no money... think im oso gg to work soon?? mb.. or continue helping my mum? stil thinking...

tomolow nitez hubby cming my hs slp le.. i knw he wont get use.. but no choice ar.. i dun wan hubby to take cab cm my hs after work.. den take cab go hm.. den sun morning take cab cm find mi agn.. veri waste money... i ask my hubby go my parents rm to slp.. got air-con.. keke...

waiting for tomolow.. can pei hubby more le.. keke... den sun got function..

hubby o hubby... miz u deep deep le.. sobx sobx...

15 march 2o1o... 2329... lost memories is BK!!! lolz

juz read sumne blog.. theres a mv.. the song is.... dun knw the pinyin la.. lolz..

anyway... i repeated the songs few times.. suddenli theres one drop of tears.. wahaha.. mad hor mi... no choice le.. tat part of the memories actuali 'LOST' for yrs liao.. den suddenli it came bk..

the memories is the yr of 2003.. not bcoz of my x husband.. is sumthing to do wif a F**KING ASS who is a liar!!! lolz.. tat yr.. bcoz of the incident.. i eat work stand sit slp... oso wil cry like mad... y i tears?? of coz not bcoz of those jerk ass... is bcoz.. im thinking.. y those things muz happened on mi?? juz bcoz im dumb in rs?? lolz.. mi trying to b zhen xing.. yet.. at the end... i bcm dumb ass.. LOLZ..

heart so painful now.. tat y im the one who suffering all those things??? reali WTF lor...

but nvm.. whenever i feel so sad or painful.. once i heard hubby de voice.. i wil feel so much beta.. bcoz of hubby.. i reali feel the happiness rite now...

hubby~~~ reali thx for being there for mi whenever im sad.. even if u not wif mi... u always cal n check whether im alrite ma.. ur voice comfort mi... ur hug warms mi.. ur kiss melt my heart..

7 march 2o1o... 2349...

now hubby so sick sick.. if tomolow i go find him he stil veri sick.. im gg to bring him see doc agn...

nb.. the silver cross (holland) doc reali like shit.. he tot my hubby pretend sick.. mai give him mc.. tis not the 1st time.. last time at serangoon de silver cross oso like tis.. all they knw how to say is my hubby got throat infection.. check oso dun wanna check.. give my hubby a few medi.. reali ass..

today hubby went to see another doc.. oso like dun care like tat.. is abit beta den silver cross.. but no use le.. my hubby is veri weak now.. think hubby downstairs de doc is so much beta...

my poor hubby.. hubby de trainer oso knn la.. cb.. hubby de fren told their trainer hes sick.. their trainer tat my hubby they all r joking.. CB!! if anything happen to my hubby.. they sure wil b in the headline the next day.. i wan an ans frm them... esp my hubby de trainer...

hubby nvm.. u wil b ok de.. sorri i cant stay at ur side tc of u when u nid mi.. im so sorri.. have to tc of my son... u muz take gd care of urself whenever im not ard k.. dun let mi worri... I LOVE U!!!

3 march 2o1o... wed.. 23.36...

today dun knw y wor.. kind of emo.. haiz... how i wish hubby is wif mi today.. at afternoon when im omw go find hubby.. i cried in cab.. reali dun knw y lor.. haiz..

now is emo til tired.. juz wanna slp.. lolz..

1st mar 2o1o.. mon..2315

balala.. dun wanna listen any rubbish anymore.. my thing i oso cant handle liao.. hao xing mei hao bao.. wanna help ppl out of trouble.. yet give ppl say.. nb la.. if u wan ppl listen to u.. sure ppl wil give advice de lor.. if u dun wanna hear those words.. u dun wanna hear de.. DEN KIP IT URSELF..

ya la ya la.. in tis world.. onli u suffer la.. we all no problems de la.. onli u la.. happi bo??

END. (dun nid to say anymore)


back to my things..

today is a busy day wor.. tis morning after helping my mummy.. den go buy my thing.. den go help hubby buy his chips (dam x) lolz.. den rush to fetch my baobei to student care.. omg lor.. forget today is mon.. nid to bring cloths to student care.. zzz.. so have to rush hm to take.. den bring to student care.. den rush bk hm to bath.. den rush to find hubby for lurch.. den rush to find my fren chat.. den rush to fetch my son.. den rush to find MP.. den now... FINALI AT HM LIAO... wahaha...

haven bath.. muz wait til my son orh orh de can go bath.. he dun like to b alone... oso waiting for hubby to reach hm... tiring day lor.. later sure slp liao PIG.. keke..

HUBBY!!! MIZ U SO THE MUCH WOR!!!!