28 feb 2o1o... sun.....2149

tis week start my new job.. but i dun reali like.. so worked for 3days.. den quit liao.. so bore at office..

one main reason tat i quit.. is bcoz of my hubby..

his company ask him to work perm afternoon shift during his training.. means tis two month.. he wil have to work 15oo-23oo.. omg.. wat a shit timing.. so hard to meet him if i oso work outside.. even his off day i oso have to work.. sobx sobx.. den hai hubby have to cm find mi after his work.. it touchs mi n hurt mi at the same time.. touches mi is bcoz so late le.. he stil cm n find mi.. but hurts mi is bcoz so late liao.. i scare he tired wor.. but stil wil find a pt job soon after my sis recover.. sure every thus sat & sun.. i dun work.. wahaha.. thus is to pei hubby... sat n sun is for my son.. keke... reali miz hubby alot..

sumone sms mi sumthing tis morning.. dun wanna said who.. but i think she knw herself... i dun wanna waste my time.. let mi say one last time.. u love hear or not.. up to u...

'gal.. see.. i knw u dun like to hear tis kind of thing... but stil u have to face the truth.. if u dun help urself.. no one will..

is juz like.. there is a deep hole infront.. n u chose to fall inside.. when passer-by (ur frenz) throw a rope down n wanna pull u up.. u chose to let go the rope n let urself to fall deeper.. who to blame den?? choice is urs..

summore.. u r old enough to handle tis kind of rs.. dun blind urself.. FACE THE REALITY!!!! DUN DREAMING!!!!

in tis world.. not onli u r suffering.. u asked mi bk.. wat if my bf let go of mi.. how wil i feel?? now i tel u..

if is bcoz he dun love mi anymore.. den sorri.. i wont ask him bk..

if he is gg bk to his own country... i wil have a tok wif him.. if we find long distant rs is too miserable.. den we have to end it...

u think i nv go thro those stages tat i have to let go my loved ones?? i can tell u loudly!!! YES I DID B4.. n not onli once...

love not onli holding on.. got another kind of love.. cal letting go..'

tis is wat i have to say.. dun love to hear.. den SORRI.. NO ONE CAN HELP U!!!

so hungry.. HUBBY I MIZ U!!!!! <3>

(18 feb 2o1o.. thus)( bad day)

today happened sumthing tat make mi reali pissed off..n at nitez i lose 90bucks!!! =.=''''

y sum ppl juz wanna knw the truth?? even they knew it.. wat can they do?? either u accept or FUCK OFF???!!! is easy isn't it??

im sumone who dun reali nid to knw so many things.. everyone got their sercets.. y go drag?? after dragging.. will u reali feel happi?? u told mi.. u juz ask.. not drag.. FUCKING HELL.. DEN Y U KIP ASKING when u said u r not dragging..

i told u b4.. follow the wind.. dun against it.. b smart..

anyway u r too young.. cant blame u much.. but plz learn ur lesson.. dun always kip asking when u said u r not dragging!!! kip asking = dragging.. when u knw the truth.. i Sure leave u!!!

HUBBY!!! DUN FORCE MI!!! i told u liao.. if u r the type of guys who love to drag ppl sercets.. plz leave.. i dun nid u..

im might b perfect in sum ways.. but im not perfect in everything...

anyway.. happi 18months anniversary..

(14/2.. sun) HAPPI CNY & HAPPI VDAY

hohoho.. HAPPI CNY & VDAY EVERYONE!!! in tis new year.. may all the bad luck all go away.. all the gd luck cm cm.. HUAT AR!!! lolz..

tis yr cny falls on vday.. cant celebrate wif hubby vday... haiz.. sad.. nvm.. next sat (20/2).. we gg to celebrate our VDAY!!!! wahaha...

think 4 mi.. as long as we have our er ren shi jie means is our Vday le.. no choice wor.. our time is so limited.. sobx sobx.. but hor.. whenever we spend time er ren shi jie.. the time seems like pass veri fast lor.. kns..

hubby!! miz u lots lots.. muackz..

(6th feb.. sat) 0017

our love..

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/vday_love_story/306962/im_a_selfish_hottempered_and_flirty_single_mum.html

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/43326.html


now late late le.. wanna go slp... juz found out sumthing.. the kuku who said wanna interview mi wan.. is my x.. using new email.. new hp..

knew sumthing was wrong when tis kuku said he get my email frm fb.. n my bf oso go check is the company registered.. n is not.. lolz..

den i knw sumone trying to fool mi.. den told my bf.. mon not gg for interview.. not worth my time.. (actuali wanna go find out who the kuku is.. but partly oso lazy to find out) nothing big deal anyway..

HUBBY!! nitez nitez!!! muackz

(5th feb.. fri) 0913

agn juz finish my stairs climbing & sit-up... kind of tired.. lolz..

yesterday after helping my mum.. went out wif my hubby.. he bought his suit set at G2000.. at 1st we went to ION G2000.. OMG!!! the staff there IGNORE US!!!! how can like tis le... juz bcoz we nv wear nice nice izzit.. look like no money ar?? In the store onli have a few customers.. even my bf ask for help.. (one of the staff was standing stil.. n looking ard).. she pretend nv saw us n IGNORE US!!! ION le.. tot have gd service?? tis cal gd ar?? change all the staff la.. KNS...

veri angry lor.. den we go other outlet buy.. we went to wisma.. there beta abit.. but.. they staff like look down on us.. lolz.. my bf angry til.. he dun wanna buy agn frm G2000 anymore.. haha. no next time..

after buying his suit.. den we went bk ION eat n walk walk.. den we went far east to see my boots.. keke.. bought one.. nice one.. n cheap.. lolz.. offer ma.. keke.. so happi lor..

next week is my son n my hubby turn to buy their new cloths liao.. wahah..

Hubby!!! i miz u wor.. sobx sobx..

tomolow MJ!!!!!

(5th feb) dun treat mi like a fool

*treat mi like a fool.. i wil make u like a fool*

now is midnite liao.. wanna update my blog b4 i slp..

got a crap guy.. ask mi..

he: r u finding pt job?

mi: yes

he: pt admin.. frm 2-7pm.. ok?

mi: ok

he: im looking for attractive & sexy pt admin..

mi: .... im not sexy n not attractive..

he: nvm

tok abt admin awhile.. den he ask mi abt modelling... den after abt flirting.. i asked him where he got my email?? he said FB... fb?? omg.. how can he see my email frm fb?? =.= crap..

i told him im not interested in flirting.. den tok rubbish awhile.. i asked for his company website.. he said dun have.. he asked mi mon go interview.. i wanna see wat the F hes up to.. my hubby gg wif mi oso.. lolz.. 8.5/hr.. sounds not bad...

helo.. im not newbie.. n sumhow.. i knw alittle bit abt tat line.. treat mi like a fool.. i wil make u like a fool.. knn.. I DUN CARE WHO THE HELL R U!!! U MESS WIF THE WRONG WOMAN NOW..

if u r up to sumthing.. beta stop now.. if u r reali looking for pt admin.. the time n pay.. reali not bad for mi.. 2-7pm.. gd timing..

HUBBY!!! dun worri abt mi.. im not 1st time deal wif tis kind of ppl.. i have seen too many jerk!!! i knw how to deal wif them.. muackz.. dun worri.. juz trust mi.. i wil nv let u down..

*TRUST MI IF U REALI LOVE MI*

beta dun knw the truth

"Let ur life b interesting... Not Complicated"

to my dear fren.. (i dun wanna name..) i hope u knw who r u..

sumtimes is beta dun knw the truth.. like u said.. ppl hide frm u is bcoz they dun wanna hurt u or sumthings.. if is reali sumthing reali important.. i blive they wil try to tok to u.. juz relax urself.. juz dun kip guessing..

kip guessing for the unnecessary things.. wil onli make urself more miserable.. juz do the things u reali nid to do..

if u reali love tat person.. juz tell him.. staying or not.. is up to him.. juz fight for wat u can/wan..

remember tis.. " wats urs is urs.. wats not.. dun force"

"Some love is to let go.. not to hold on"

(4th feb.. wed) 0856

juz finish climbing stairs & sit-ups.. veri tired.. but feel fresh wor.. exercise reali re fresh mi everyday.. lolz.. esp swimming.. wahaha.. healthy le.. but im stil smoking.. so not much diff..

now rest awhile.. mb taking nap?? not sure.. see how ba.. lolz.. think i nid to drink lots of water.. lolz.. now everyday wil drink one glass of orange juice.. think i nid Vc veri badly.. if not.. easy to fall sick.. lolz..

later after helping my mum.. im gg to pei my hubby go buy his suit.. lolz.. bcoz of one 2pid lic pic.. nid to wear til smart smart.. wahlao.. juz a suit.. at least 200.. reali x lor.. zzz.. den if got time.. we gg to see his converse shoes.. CNY.. everything muz b new.. so wil have gd luck.. (true??).. lolz.. anyway.. gg to buy sooner or later..

Yeah Yeah.. later can pei hubby awhile lor.. but i have to try to go fetch my son on time.. haha.. hope can ba...

CNY cming lor.. u guys buy new cloths liao ma.. if haven.. faster go buy wor..

HUBBY!!! see u later!!! I MIZ U!!!!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

(3 feb 2o1o)

lolz.. looking at other ppl wedding pics.. so envy them.. deep in my heart.. yes.. i stil do wan a happi family.. but when?? when can i have it?? dun dare to think... hope to have a 2nd child.. when can i have?? or will i have?? if too old le.. dun dare to give birth 2nd one liao..

i dun dare to give my bf so much stress.. since he stil young.. juz gg to start his career.. i dun dare to ask anything frm him.. bcoz partly.. i dun dare to put so much hope.. im not scare to fall down agn.. is juz tat.. im LAZY to fall down den stand up agn bcoz of rs.. tats y.. dun put high hope.. wont fall so hard.. mb im reali kind of tired liao ba..

i juz realized tat.. i had put down my past.. n looking forward.. mb reali old liao.. n tired of holding on the past.. past got so much bad things happened.. now i dare to face those who last time hurt mi le.. of coz.. wat had happened.. wil remind as memories.. every now n den i recalled.. i feel nothing at all.. mb now too xin fu liao.. or mb should i say.. already so many things happened le.. feel numb??

for mi.. rs is always the last thing to think abt.. bcoz im so busy wif my own things.. esp my son..

there is one thing i wanna share.. b positive in life.. dun always so neg & emo.. life sure got lots of ups & down.. dun small small matter.. see til like super big matters.. if got problems.. solve it.. at there emo & being neg.. & drinking.. wont help to solve ur problems..

too emo or & neg.. wil let sum ppl sianz of u.. not they dun wanna listen to u.. but if same old problems for more den 6months.. & u kip saying the same things.. ppl hear liao oso wil sianz... dun say more den 6months la.. sum ppl hear more den a month oso sianz..

hubby~~ i dun knw how our future wil b.. if reali wanna b wif mi.. we reali muz work hard.. if one day u change ur heart.. PLZ TEL MI.. dun let mi catch u... lolz... ;P

hubby nitez nitez wor.. im gg to bed le..

*COUNT DOWN*~~~~~*17 m0re days*

(1st feb)

lolz.. last fri hubby morning cm find mi n pei mi go swim.. reali surprise to see him.. but im veir happi wor.. lolz..

mi more n more like swimming le.. let mi forget all my worries.. haha...

tat time we tio interview by razorTV.. now got another paper interview.. but i reject them due to sum reasons.. sad thing is tat cant share wif sg tat our love story.. but happi thing is tat.. they r interested in our story.. haha.. happi happi happi!!

now waiting for 20th feb.. hope nothing happen.. everything wil went smoothly.. lolz.. can pei hubby liao... wahaha..


HUBBY!!! i love u... nitey.. muackz