26 jan 2o11.. 0059

feeling so miserable now... crying wifout sound now... feeling so hurt..

bitch always a bitch.. onli knw how to hurt ppl... i admit.. im a bitch... i reali dun deserve any gd guys.... i blame myself.. i dun blame u... u did nothing wrong... juz tat.. u r stil a guy... but i nid a man... the more i see abt us.. the more make mi miserable... starting to see the truth... make mi more miserable..

the more u care for mi... the more i feel like im shit... sori.. i cant change.. im stil mi... alot of things.. dun tel u... bcoz dun wanna see u so miserable.. i rather i cry alone... plz dun ask mi anything...

u r stil young.. theres many choices... im gg to 30... thinking diff... bcoz of mi... u force urself to change... juz b urself hao ma.. let mi see the real u.. at least i knw... dun cry bcoz of mi... dun feel sad for mi.. not worth.. im juz a bitch...

love u hubby... miz u so much now

16 jan 2o1o.. Sun... o113

read sumone fb.. kind of pissed off now... juz hope shes not saying abt her own family... if she is... den plz read... i dun wish to tok abt it..

cb?? family members r cb?? or juz mi?? cb i have le.. u oso have.. juz walk off without throwing the mattress out?? u have to pack ya hs.. mi oso nid to pack our hs... juz a few mins thing to do.. wat so hard abt it?? complain complain COMPLAIN.. ppl kip quiet.. den u think u always rite?? no respect to ppl.. think ppl wil respect u?? dun juz think for urself..

always said ppl tis no gd.. tat not gd.. u think u veri gd?? think abt it... y u bcm like tis.. dun understand.. if u think u r always rite... den.. DUN DEPEND ON OTHERS LA!!! juz do ya things urself la.. dun ask for help frm others if u r so FUCKING CLEVER!!!

ask u to take ya things.. bcoz.. U HAVE FUCKING EYES TO SEE!! we r painting our hs... ya hs is mostly done.. so u have lesser things den us.. n u think u r the onli one veri xinku & busy??? THINK HARD LA!!! sori le.. we got no money.. so cannot ask ppl cm paint our hs le.. if u think u always 'clean' other ppl shit.. den wat the hell im doing juz now?? CLEANING YA SHIT!! take a mirror n look at yaself..

FUCKING STOP BLAMING OTHER PPL & THINK URSELF IS A GOD!!!! u think u nv do wrong?? THINK FUCKING HARD PLZZZZZZZZ!!!! u dun wan mi tis sis.. I OSO DUN MIND!!! my limit is up if u scold US CB!!

but if nv mean is us.. den muackz.. sori im too sensitive.. cheers!! =D

o5 Jan 2o11.. wed.. 1853

juz fetch my son bk not long..

yesterday is my baby de 1st day of school at his new school.. at 1st.. im worri.. will he b ok?? my worries all gone half.. coz.. he actuali love it alot.. LOLz... alot more to cm... when saw him.. buy things by himself.. do things by himself.. i feel so touched!!! my boy have grown up!! haha...

today is 2nd day of school.. n last nite i pack his school bag... for tues de lessons.. OMG.. 2pid mummy mi.. i should pack for him wed de lessons de lor.. LOLz... den morning half way to school... have to run bk hm to repack... zzzz...

last nite... i cried.. i brk down.. once in awhile.. i will b like tis.. no choice.. coz bottle up too many stuffs... to sum ppl.. might not a gd things.. or mb tot im weak.. nope.. is juz tat.. once awhile.. nid to de-stress myself by crying out.. not loud.. but is silent.. by myself.. (at least im not like everyday EMO~~~!!! im not a neg. person)...

N tis morning.. im wake up feeling fresh & ALIVE!!!! im myself AGN!!! wahaha... nothing will b able to make mi fall down~~~ all things happen onli make mi stronger each day.. bcoz i learn everyday...