(30/5)

~~ always happi de mi... always happi wif my life... ~~

" [parent] tend to see every real or imagined

imperfection in their child as a sign tat they

have failed... they kip straining to cr8 their

fantasy of the ideal child instead of

appreciating the real child they actualli have.."

-Eyelyn B Thoman, PhD,

child-development researcher,

University of Connection

tis morning wake up at 0900... prepare for my son school workshop... gg to learn new things abt how to understand my son more... n the correct way of teaching my son...like all the old ppl said... give birth is easy... but teaching is hard... i totali agree..

eversince i gave birth til last yr... i nv reali understand my son... all i care abt is work n play... ( spend my time mostly at work )... tis yr... bside helping my parents at their stall.. i nv reali go n find other.. coz ... partly im tired of working long long hr... partly is bcoz... i wanna spend more time for my son... understand my son beta...

when i started to wanna knw my son well...?? is last yr dec... i attended my son school graduation cum xmas celebration 2008... i realized tat... for the past 2yrs... i nv accompany my son for any school events... IM FKING BAD MUM!!! when i see my son dance on the stage... my heart feel happi n aching... aching tat i nv been a gd mummy for the past 4yrs... i hope is not too late to turn ard... to understand my son... to teach my son... to pei my son whenever theres an school event...

im saying all this... juz wanna let those who r like mi... single mum... divorcee.. all i wan u to knw is tat... give ur child more love n care as they dun have father... pei them more as u can... dun give urself xcuse like: u r veri busy abt ur work... lalala.... coz this is wat i give myself the xcuse last time... all rubbish... find time for ur child... as they nid u alot...

stil got more to share... tat put deep in my heart long long time... now i dare to admit it... bcoz im changing myself... n learning new things...

~~ always love my family * my son * my bf ~~

(26/5)

~~ always happi de mi.. always happi wif my life.. ~~

today after helping my mum... went hm bath... den went to perm my hair... at 1st nv tot of perm-ing de... but the auntite said can do wat i wan... so i try... at the end not the curl i wan... regret at 1st... but... the longer i look the more i like wor... nv perm whole head la... juz behind... infront n side cut short... hubby said ok wor... not bad... but i scare hubby not reali happi wor... coz i cut short...

hubby dun sad sad k... i nv cut short behind ar... keke... juz bcoz of the curl... make my hair look short onli... wait for another 6 months to a yr... i wil go make straight le... dun worri k... muacks... sori tat i veri sad abt not able to do my hair ar... im reali boring abt my hair lor... i nv so fan abt doing hair b4 de... muacks hubby... thx for... at the stil encourage mi to do my hair...

i knw i nv told u i wanna perm at 1st... juz wanna cut... since the auntie told mi can do the curl i wan... so i do lor... sobx... (at the end not i wan de... but nvm... at least stil not bad rite... keke)

after doing my hair... i went hm to fetch my son...den went to find hubby... keke... we went to eat... pepper lurch... den we bring my son go play games... after tat went hm liao... keke...

yaya... tomolow can see hubby n hug him tight tight liao... wahaha... tomolow can go play the catch soft toy thing at ps le... wahaha... muacks hubby... looking forward wor....

k la... gg to slp le... nitez everyone^^

~~ always love my family * my son * my bf ~~

(24/5)

~~ always happi de mi.. always feel happi abt my life ~~

sobx sobx... feel sick... run a few times toilet... den suddenli vomit... now sore throat & headache... how i wish im wif hubby now so he can hug hug mi tis sick person to slp lor... T_T

hubby o hubby... miz u lots lots neh... hubby ask mi if i reali sick muz cal him... but if he reali slping... u say wil i cal him?? ans is WONT LA... haha...

hubby... u knw i so lucky to have u wif mi?? keke... thx wor... nv tot i wil meet sumone nice agn ar... reali reali love u lots lots day by day... thx for the care n concern tat u given mi all this time...

wo hui hao hao zhen xi ni de... even theres no happi ending... i oso wil feel happi to b wif u de... have to zhen xi now of wat i have... i dun wanna regret wif i nv zhen xi ni... keke...

hao le... gd nitez everyone... gd nitez hubby... muacks ^_^

(23/5) yesterday bring my son out to meet my hubby... den we go have mac... den go play game... after send my son hm slp... den go bk my hubby hs slp...

~~ always love my family * my son * my bf ~~

(23/5)

~~ always happi de mi... always feel happi abt my life ~~

yesterday toking wif vel... so forgotten wat to write... lolz...

sumtimes... sumthings... even is already solve... things wil nv b the same agn... either beta den last time... or things wil juz stay like nv solve b4...

things tat had happen... wil bcm a memories... am i reali being forgiven? as in totali not angry wif mi... i dun knw... juz tat... have sum weird feeling... i dun feel tat im totali being forgiven...

is always easy to say... but wat abt ur heart??? i do miz last time at kovan... but wil it happen agn??? even we reali meet n have coffee... things wil b the same as last time??? we chat laugh sad n emo together??? lolz...

sound complicated???? is not... when im reali being forgiven... juz hope to let her knw tat....

if u reali cant forgive mi... dun force urself to accept mi bk as ur best buddy... i wont do anything to ask for ur forgiveness... coz like wat they said... if we reali best buddy... no matter wat we did... at the end we stil best buddy...

tc of urself buddy... dun drink too much... tat wont help u de-stress... but onli wil b more emo... get more slp... mb do sum exercise if u reali emo... wil help u think properly n clearly... drinking wont help u think more properly n clearly.. onli wil harm u if u drink every week...

kk... gg to meet my hubby soon after my mummy n daddy cm bk to look after my son... tc frenz^^

~~ always love my family * my son * my bf ~~

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boo!!! im bk... so long nv update le... keke... busy busy busy... onli few ppl in my life make mi so busy le... esp my son n my bf... hohoho...

happi today... coz vel start toking to mi le... stil i wanna say is...

to vel..

thankx for forgiving mi... i knw im veri wrong tat time... my words hurt u alot... but have u bk as my best buddy... i reali happi... i reali miz alot of our times... wahaha...

now hope we wil have coffee soon.. haha...

gtg bb guys tc...