new yr cming~~~

2009 is cming.. anyone have any wish??? lolz... for mi... gg to look for new job.. my bf looking for job too... as he gg to ord...

for mi 2009 wil b totali a diff yr for mi... coz... i wil make my dreamz cm true... might not b successful... but at least... im willing to give it a try....trying = 50/50... dun even wanna make the 1st move = 0/100... am i rite?? life is so unpredictable... nv knw wat happen next... so y not try out the things u wanna do ( as long as is legal n wil not hurt other ppl ) cm on... juz give it a try...

letting go of the past... try ur veri best to do... i knw not easy for mi... but i stil nid to do it....

o my... veri excited... my bf bday cming... have chalet... on 31st dec... have to bring my son over to the chalet...

all ppl... JY JY (jia you) for 2009~~~ dun give up~~~ cheers

new life????

new life??? ya.. mb... after tis few months... happened alot of thing... as for Mr Tan... i have given up on him... ask mi y??? is easy... i saw thro him... he make use of my love to him to b close to my 'best fren'.... but nvm.. is already past.. n i told my best fren abt mi n him... my best fren said i betray her... lolz... so i lost Mr Tan n my 'best fren'

betray??? lolz... wat a bad word... wats the meaning of betray??? juz bcoz Vel ('best fren') love Mr Tan.. (they r not bf gf, as Vel gg to get marry to another man.. ya.. Mr Tan n Vel is kind of like flirting bhind her bf...) n i nv tel Vel tat mi n Mr Tan is secretly together... ( yes.. i admit is my fault.. i shouldn hide from her).. does tis mean 'betray'?? NA~~~ nvm... i delected Vel frm my eveything... lolz... is pointless to xplain... coz she blive Mr Tan more den mi... crap... she said i spoilt our friendship... gosh... i nv said ended our friendship... shes the one who say it.... watever now...

i stil miz tat time mi n vel n few gals having coffee together... tat nv gg to happen again... since shes blind by love?? ya mb... Mr Tan.. a sweet tok guy... crap...

anyway bk to my simple life now... have a bf for 4months plus... younger den mi 5yo... veri caring... loving... til now... i nv tot of flirting outside... is a gd sign for mi... lolz... means tat... hes veri important to mi .... ya.. sumthing stil remain the same... example... im stil kind of fierce... lozl... hot temper... til now my bf n mi... stil veri loving... mb... is true tat... i wanna settle myself down... (not in marriage type... juz dun feel like flirting anymore) tired of tis kind of life... so lifeless... i nid sumone who reali love mi n care for mi... not juz sex... i knw sex is part of life... but u guys should knw if the person reali love u or juz for sex rite...

to my hubby (robin)

hubby... thkx for everything... u reali veri caring towards mi... n veri loving to my son as well... sori tat u have to take all my rubbish all the time... sori if im not tat type of loving sweet type of woman... but... i reali reali reali love ya... like i said... u nv give up... i nv give up k.... muackz... love yaaaaaa.....


late liao... gg to slp... nites everyone

unforgetable 16 july 2008

late at nite... frm mrt walking hm... listening to music... i slow down my step... tears roll down my cheeks... yap... im crying... my heart feel so sour like how the lemon is...

at nite ard 2000+ close to 2100... i got a sms frm her... she told mi MrTan went to find her at T3... to have his dinner wif her... im shocked by the news...

den i sms MrTan... he told mi he send his client to the airport... den passby her shop... MY HEART SINK!!! i had a great fall... so sour... he called mi... trying to xplain to mi... im juz dun wanna listen.... y?? BCOZ I SAW THE TRUTH!!!

Y?? Y?? y he frm T1 find food til went to T3??? summore he passby her shop!!! Y?? Y HES ABLE TO MEET HER FOR SUPPER?? Y NOT MI??? Y HE WENT TO FIND HER WHEN HE KNW TAT SHE STIL LOVE HIM??? Y??? Y??? Y HE NV CM TO FOND MI N XPLAIN TO MI?? Y??

as im writing tis blog... IM STIL CRYING LIKE HELL!!!!

im juz a fool... so wat he already accepted mi?? his heart is not wif mi

unforgetable 9 july 2008

juz reach hm after my lesson... think tomolow die die oso muz go interview liao... damn bore at hm... stil thinking of mon thingy... it seems like... juz happen yesterday....

miz his kiss... miz hi hug.... miz his words... juz miz him so much.... tis morning i sms him... i dun nid necklace or wat... i juz wan him to pei mi more when he have time....

dear dear... i love u... i reali do....

unforgetable 4 - 7 july 2008

on 4th of july... MrTan suppost to meet mi... he called mi at morning... bcoz of him... i nv go interview... i nv go lesson... waited til 2000+... he sms mi cant meet mi liao... feel sad...

den sum1 told mi abt his thing... im veri sad tat... y i get to knw his thing throu her... but i sms MrTan tat i willing to tc of him the rest of his life...( after i heard his stories... my poor dear dear).. hes the onli one i wil marry now... n he told mi the reason y unblock her in msn on the fone... i accept the reason... no matter wat the reason MrTan give... i wil accept...

sat nite (5th july)... i went to st james n dragon fly... the fun part is... my best fren's guy fren... veri entertain mi... til his fren tot im his gf... lolz... at 5plus ( 6th july )... we reach kovan for breakfast... 6plus reach hm...

6th july.. i bought MrTan car number... the number jump... bo tio 4D...

7th july... 12+ noon.... MrTan called mi... 1330 i wake up... cal bk MrTan... he say if can he will meet mi... again i nv go for interview.... at 1500... he reach my hs downstairs to fetch mi... he knw i angry wif him... coz... i sms him sumthing b4 i meet b4... we reach the place... he told mi sori... den told mi... he wil buy a necklace for mi... ( he forget my cd.. so mb the necklace he sure forget too )... after everything.... we go for coffee at serangoon garden...

on the way to garden... he ask mi whether wanna go movie wif him ma... woot... im dam shock... 1st time he ask mi out for a real date... 1745 he send mi to my son school... i ask him drop mi there... n i ask him go bk to work... work more important...

b4 i leave... we got kiss gd bye wor... so happi... can see frm 7th july tat... our RS IMPROVE!!!... i wil gd.... wahaha....

unforgetable 30 june 2008

on mon (30june)... she told mi tat... MrTan unblock her at msn... now... im thinking.... is he gg bk to chase her...??? i got a veri bad feeling.. i will lose MrTan veri soon.... ( i hope not )... when she told mi.... i feel deeply in hurt.... haiz.... wil MrTan chose her?? am i gg to waste my one yr waiting for him?? i reali dun knw..

on 1st july... i met my her n one more gal go party world... i sing til i cried... lolz... stupid mi.... haiz.... reali hope to meet MrTan to ask him.... to make clear....

hope to see MrTan soon

unforgetable 22 june 2008

lolz... last nite wanna drink wif benjamin.. tis morning vomit til 5plus close to 6am... i went to take a nap... once awake... is already day light...

last nite i tot of him again........ i miz him so much..... so i sms mi... he replied... n said.... 'im slping...' den i replied... 'nites... dun wan u to knw... i miz u' den he no reply.. think he reali fall aslp... lolz...

benjamin said he can wait for mi... but how long reali can he wait??? i waited for Mr tan for nearly one yr... n im stil waiting for him... if u ask mi y i dun wanna accept benjamin.... the ans veri easy.... he got nothing.... not even a steaible job... i cant accept a guy like tis... bcoz... i dun wanna suffer in future....

he cant even support himself... how is he gg to support mi... im a gal who veri reality woman after all i have gone thro... Mr tan have all i wan.... i love mr tan alot alot... i reali hope one day he can accept mi...

unforgetable 19 june 2008

ard 1130... i got MrTan called... so happi when i saw his cal... lolz.. at 12noon he reached my hs downstairs... as usual.. we go our usual place..... den we go for coffee...

finali can see him liao... til now.. none of my frenz knw who he is... lolz... so nice tat i can hug him again... love him so much....